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but the universe doesn't just revolve around us but revolves around each of everyone. the center of the universe is everywhere everywhen. dig.\nawaken to that consciousness of heart and mind and spirit. we need to get together and groove. but that'll probably never happen except the exponential curve we're riding up up up with everything about to explode into something. will we ever know? some imagine yes while others imagine no and there is the crowd who favors maybe.\nand this goes beyond your limited attention span. we cannot help that. we receive and transmit what it is and what it is not. for many of you that is where the confusion begins, when rationalogic reason ends. oh dear, whatever have we done?\nwe do what is ongoing. this is true with everything in constant movement, though there is no such thing as movement, through cycles of changing tides pulled by the fake moon all the while we seem to remember. we could be wrong. we must always remember that.\nbut how can we be wrong if when we believe in anything and everything? but that kinda thinking breeds contradictions galore. but if we can think contradictions is only becuz there are contradictions in reality? perhaps so.\nthe clown is both ugly and bamboozled. is that a contradiction? perhaps not.\nhe chews some bubblegum. he has little faith in science or religion. both from the same cloth. the cloth of greed and pyramid social organization of winners and losers.\nbut why do we complain? are we complaining, or just stating how everything is going? we have nothing to complain about, or do we? \nfuck that.\n![64.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmecTFzuXdKMFNHnMovFzrJr7PSvTJoexUZqHu2obA6jmG/64.jpg)\nthe project is ahead of schedule and under budget. wonderful. fantastic. hooray. does this mean we are free? or is the question of being free irrelevant?\nand free to do what? free to die? is that the ultimate freedom?\nfree of fleas.\nfree to live without anyone bugging the shit outta ya, and everyone is free to be unbugged from you as well. provide everything for yourself. but all the resources are controlled by the rich pigs who need to die. but they are easily replaced by anyone fighting their way to the top, and there are 100s and 1000s and more. get used to it.\ndespite people shouting about it in the streets there's no way to defeat it. the more it changes the more it remains the same. it transforms us, we do not transform it.\nwe are transformed into obedient cogs or rebellious cogs. whatever. we are cogs of the great machine no matter what we do otherwise.\nthe machine is yin yang. it is in balance no matter how far out of balance. it is always correct. billions of us count on it being so, for or against. this is what we need to come to understand. \n11:12\npurist singular principled discouraged bum in the street along with the rest of us. pretend it's not you. what would you do?\ngazorbnik reasoning gets you through it when you have perhaps already given up on life itself. don't be a fool believing all that nihilistic dogma. make it up for yourself like anything else you may find pleasing. arf. \nlike monkeys in a zoo, playing and fucking, just like you. it's a matter if you believe in magick or not. even if you don't it may still help you. that's the way of magick. look for it. it's there around you. ride the wave. and you can't do nothing about people's greed for everything. what is too much? 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