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      "body": "Hello there!\nIf you have discovered me before, then welcome back. Your support means so much. If you are a first timer here, then I welcome you.\n\nSometimes life throws us a curve ball. Every now and then, circumstances and karma conspire with each other and you can find yourself in a state of shock, wondering what the hell just happened! It happened to me. Its happened a few times actually. One moment your life is one thing. The next, after some sort of event, your life will never be the same again... ever. You can only seem to fathom that one of these life changing moments has happened only after the fact. Sometimes it is only realised when time has passed and not a day since have you felt the same, or had the same life. I'm talking about the big ones. The events, the sentences, the single act, meant that from this point forward, your previous life is dead and everything you were familiar with up until that point has transformed into something alien and scary.\nWhen this happened to me, I discovered that each day had become strange and unfamiliar in an instant. I no longer had the same life or routines. I no longer lived in the same place. The streets were unknown to me and so were the faces. The people I spoke with on a daily basis were absent from my life. My environment had absolutely and totally been replaced. Never would I sleep in the same bed again. Never would I bathe in that bathroom again. Even my clothes began to smell different due to the new wash powder I was using. It's strange but I found that its those small things that added the extra bite to the awful pain I was swimming in. It was a horrid type of fear that I had never experienced to that degree before. Probably one of the worst things that accompanied my pain, was the isolation that happens when an instant life relocation occurs.\nI have always loved my own space and alone time, but this was near total isolation from anyone familiar. I had my children with me and they were a life-line, however because they were children I felt unable to share these scary adult themes with them. I couldn't sit there and cry about how alone I was feeling. I needed to be the strong one, because this life-change had also happened to them too.\n\nOver time, this strange and unwanted life that had been thrust upon me began to evolve into my new life. The new things began to gradually become my new normal, my new routine. The people at the new shops began small talk. So did the new neighbours and the odd passer-by on the street. I spoke regularly to the few homeless guys that I would bump into as well. Apart from those little and very valuable snippets of contact with others, I felt very alone. I felt lonely. I was lonely.\n\nhttps://scontent.flhr2-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/74595289_575229483216469_4153114997343387648_n.jpg?_nc_cat=106&_nc_oc=AQnOag-mhFE2RVt9U1vFS-8S7rg6bx5Bvfr4K1jrOX8qIJ6FDZMzxWXCfhdNRZv-8UY&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr2-1.fna&oh=dd502358b38e2bb0036bfb8655a181d7&oe=5E64D0CC\n\nTo battle this loneliness I threw myself into my 'commitment'. I decided long before my unwanted life change, that I existed in a painful world of my own creation and that I must act to rid myself of it. I have spoke about this in previous posts. In this process I gradually discovered something valuable and life changing. I found that what I labelled as 'isolation', could actually be re-labelled as 'opportunity'. Being largely alone and mentally isolated could mean that I had ample 'focus time' if only I could view it that way.\n\nThere is the story of the climber, who, from the bottom, looks up at the peak and knows that between where he is and the summit is a mountain. From this point of view he has a mountain to conquer. Yet if he merely places his focus on the first step, then the next and then the next, he only has the next step to conquer. The next step is a far easier task to overcome than the entire mountain and yet if repeated, the mountain will be conquered. I learned that the way we view a situation has the power to transform the situation. The loneliness could actually be a gift that I could put to good use. How many people would give their right arm for that extra brain time to do something valuable for themselves?\nAs soon as I re-labelled my personal situation, as soon as I recategorised my new life, I now perceived my loneliness as a quite rare gift. And so I acted. I threw myself into my personal 'commitment' and now here I sit writing this, and here you are reading it. This is loneliness transformed into positive action.\nThe act of taking responsibility for my life and putting even the worst situation to good use taught me something life changing. I can stand alone. I can rely upon myself. I can find something good in a very bad situation. I had found a new solid foundation to stand upon. I taught myself that being alone can be turned into a dedicated mission in which we can improve and understand ourselves on a deeply personal level. Loneliness is not a label that means 'no good'. Loneliness does not mean weakness or that you are unworthy of any love or friendship. Being alone is merely a situation in which many points of view can be attached. I have learned that you can decide which label you attach to your life.\n\nhttps://scontent.flhr2-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/75610824_575229596549791_8994287002501251072_n.jpg?_nc_cat=110&_nc_oc=AQkPpvUItvUI7OKqjb7LSgQS1JcuywyvDXnsB1KEWETPiRqNNFygDEzyjK8FmN96Zn0&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr2-2.fna&oh=d0c9314af1d62f2b37bbcf08a3cce5c2&oe=5E6456B9\n\nMastering a life alone, no matter how long or how temporary it is, in my humble opinion, is one of the most useful skills that you can ever hope to learn. Once you are no longer afraid of being alone, it becomes a reliable space that you can always easily take on again. Being alone can be a reliable and safe place to return to whenever you need to. People may come and go from your life but you will always have you. You can always be alone should you need to. Make being alone a comfort. Make your time alone useful and profiting to you. That is how you will teach your own mind that this alone time is a valuable endowment. Transform loneliness into a dependable, time-tested and positive space and never will you be drawn into negative relationships or situations merely because you fear being alone.\nThere is truth in the saying, 'Don't treat anyone that is comfortable with being alone like shit, because they don't need anybody.' Make your loneliness your superpower! Transform it into a gift for yourself. Its all about your perspective.\n\nhttps://d.tube/#!/v/wing-man/QmWbhL8eQEj6yfmdyjV16QGsUhxsz2ZGXyJF9tBGFFsTuo\n\nI thank you greatly for reading this post. Let me know how things go in the comments. There is a video too, so please check it out. I will be back with another post very soon. \n\nAlways your Wing-Man,\n\n\n\nPaul Jackson",
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      "body": "Hello and welcome back!\nAs I am relatively new to this, I find that I am becoming more aware of how my fluctuating mental state affects what material I am inspired to write and how often I am able to post. Ideally I want to post on a daily basis but alas I am not there yet.\nOver the last four days my mood has dropped quite significantly. It was my birthday last week and I consumed more alcohol than I would normally. I impose strict limits on the amount of the old funny water I partake in due to the fact that it always, always drains me of any inspiration and motivation the following day. A year or so ago I was drinking almost daily. Before that I was drinking nearly all day, every day. Having plenty of experience with excessive alcohol consumption, I can say with near certainty that one of the reasons such a drug is widely and cheaply available is to keep the population in a sort of semi-conscious stupor. 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Maybe it is the combination of the alcohol and the ongoing 'tragedy' that has taken its toll, but when all is said and done it makes little sense in putting what little innovation I have into pondering that question. I must take responsibility. I must be response-able. There is not one person upon the face of the earth that can bare this responsibility for me. It is my mind, my life and my experience of my life that I hold in my hands.\nSo on that note, here I am writing this post on the very subject of my temporarily perceived limitation: When the weight is too great to bare, how do we still manage to move forward?\nWhen my personal horror happened, when it was fresh and raw and so painful, for the first time in my life I was wrestling with the idea of ending my life. Sometimes it was so tangible, an option so readily close, that it scared me. The end of my pain was potentially only minutes away. There was no planning needed, the option was there and it was a real option. 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      "body": "Hello again! If you read my first introduction blog or watched the accompanying video then I thank you.\nThis post really follows on from the last one, in which I spoke about how you can take the first steps in making sure that your mind works for you, thus ensuring that you, the driver in the seat, is making all the decisions. The auto-pilot switch needs to be turned off as often as possible for you to be more in control of what you think and how you respond to your universe. \nFor this post I'm going to focus upon the smaller mechanics of 'why' we may feel something. That 'something' which directly influences our feelings and therefore our actions. Once we understand the rules of the game, we have the best chance of success. \n\nhttps://scontent.flhr2-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/71100686_550600709012680_4086612582725582848_n.jpg?_nc_cat=103&_nc_oc=AQmqarA9Xjc66BK5PauBO7vx_w62QF7vXvpWMtA8MFNJKtjr_TE1giuwQGxtiNwxmu4&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr2-1.fna&oh=738cc31a76d7e777bcde61710867e8a6&oe=5DFD445E\n\nFor us to feel something there is a stimulus. It can be an event which is happening now, a past event that we remember or a future event that we are constructing. Either way, you feel the feelings in the 'now', as I have mentioned in the previous post. Let me explain how this happens. \n\nFirst of all, realise that you don't make all the decisions within your body. You do not consciously control your heart beating, your liver functions or your bladder functions either for that matter. You have the ability to make new cells all day, every day and yet you are never aware of it actually taking place. You do not make the conscious decision to exchange oxygen for carbon dioxide. It is a fact that there are things happening inside your body that you will never be fully aware of. For example, most people are not aware that when you take a selfie, it is not one person looking back at you, it is a whole culture watching and listening to every thought and action you take.\n\nYour cells, each and every one of them, respond to what is happening to you. They do not question the situation, they merely respond. Sometimes when I hear a certain piece of music (The Doctor Who theme! I'm a big fan) I get goose pimples. Why? Because the stimulus (the music) generates a feeling. That feeling is transmitted to the cells and the result is my hair stands on end in excitement. Of course the same can be said for the feeling of fear, for instance. We feel nervous, then the listening cells respond which makes us shiver all of a sudden. Or we see our favourite food and we begin to salivate. It is always the same. Thought comes first, then there is a response to that thought. It is as though you are the President of the town called 'Myself'' and every citizen hangs upon every word that you say. Every citizen of 'Myself' does exactly what the President tells them to. Whether the information is true or not does not matter to these citizens, for they do not question the President. You are the President of your town called 'Myself'. Get used to it. You were put in charge the moment you were conceived.\n\nGood old science tells us that our cells exist, as do all animals and plants, in a world of vibration. If something vibrates, it will emit waves. Just like the speakers at a big concert. If you stand anywhere near the things, you are going to feel your insides vibrate due to the waves of sound passing through you. When we speak, we are producing sound waves of course, but never forget that the citizens of 'Myself' are receiving those waves of information too. When we think, we again generate those waves of information and send them straight to the cells of our body. Those cells will always listen and will always respond.\nI watched a video online of an experiment, whereby you place two strawberry's in two separate transparent plastic bags. One is labelled 'Love' and one is labelled 'Hate'. To the 'Love' strawberry you say nice things to it daily. You also say horrible things to the 'Hate' strawberry daily. After something like a week, the 'Love' strawberry is still flourishing, whereas the 'Hate' strawberry has turned rotten and black.\nI can see exactly why the strawberry either thrives or dies depending upon the intent of language that is spoken to it. The vibrations are either nourishing or poisoning. It is the same with the language you speak to yourself, which of course are your thoughts. Remember: every cell is listening.\nThe same applies when we speak out loud. Every time we communicate, we are literally sending out vibrations. Just like magic, one cruelly intended sentence can destroy another persons feelings. Obviously one sentence can also lift a person from hell to heaven. Just like a magic spell. As the saying goes, that's why they call it 'spelling'. This is one of the main reasons we feel awful after an argument. Just like the strawberry, we will actually wither from negative messages being received and we shall thrive when we are immersed in positive messages. \n\nhttps://scontent.flhr2-2.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/71858846_550588639013887_7134418124400492544_n.jpg?_nc_cat=102&_nc_oc=AQlNSgn2uKW_v0tIb0k2m1ebJiAPfm2raiKHRZAZXKWkLI_4WS0xu_J62Dq2f6B9qRg&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr2-2.fna&oh=eafde06ff384b62d427d8ab7272839be&oe=5E3491DB\n\nThis is a scientific fact. We cannot help it. We are always sending our waves into ourselves and the environment around us. So is your dog, so is the TV and so are your loved ones. When you know someone well enough, you can instantly tell if there's something right or wrong with them as soon as they are within your presence. Why? Because you are picking up on their vibrations. The vibration coming straight from their very being. From thought to feeling to its expression as vibration. That's why we say things like, 'I liked him, he was on my wavelength!'\n\nYou have felt this actually happening in real time yourself. How may times have you walked into a room and felt those 'vibes'? You just pick it up from the environment like a radio antenna. Whether they be good vibes or bad vibes, you feel them, sometimes very strongly. It is one of the most fundamental tools that is designed to keep you alive. With not one word spoken, you have an instant 'knowing' about a place or a person. For me personally, nine times out of ten, the gut instinct is correct. The sheep knows that the wolf is a threat without language. The elephant knows the poachers intent before the gun blows away his existence.\nWe have all been with a group of people and everything is flowing well and everyone feels comfortable. Then one person joins the group and changes the whole dynamic. How? Because the vibrational waves the newcomer brought with themselves, are penetrating everybody within the group and thus directly affecting how they feel. We are conditioned by our culture to place more value upon words than our gut instinct, which is why we can end up in bad relationships or bad situations. It is simply because people said the right things and we possibly ignored our gut feelings that were picking up on those bad vibes.\n\nSo now that you are aware of how these mysterious vibrations work, the next question must be: How does this help me with my mind?\nWe have established that thought produces feelings. How we respond to such feelings is largely dependant upon the meaning we have attached to it. If a friend mentioned that you looked like you've gained some weight, you could find the remark insulting because you are sensitive about your size. If on the other hand your goal was to gain weight, the remark would be a compliment. \nSaying that your mother looks younger with curly hair, may seem like a compliment at the time, but your mother may take it that you're saying she looks old the rest of the time, merely because of the 'meaning' she has attached to it.\nWhen the mind encounters such a 'meaning' it will produce an instant story or a movie, that can, when given the fuel, go around and around. If that movie induces undesirable feelings, we can find ourselves in a world of pain. A cycle of thoughts and feelings, more often than not, end up on a loop reel, coming around and around, driving us into despair and making us weaker by the day.\n\nIf we allow any undesirable movie to gain momentum, it is the same as drinking drain water. We poison ourselves. There is the story of the two wolves that live within your mind. One wolf could be named 'happiness' and the other cold be named 'sadness'. The one which will survive, is the one you feed. So the lessen here is common sense: Avoid consuming any poisons and do not feed anything that you want to go away.\nA poison in this context would be those thoughts that are unpleasant and harmful to you. A hard pill to swallow is the fact that it matters not one bit how much pain you are in, it will not change the outcome. Only responsible action will. It is absolutely healthy and normal to feel broken. It is expected that trauma leaves us injured. But we must push forward when we are able to. For if we never move again, then we are chaining ourselves to the pain forever.\n\nhttps://scontent.flhr2-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/71166985_550588709013880_668933511310213120_n.jpg?_nc_cat=109&_nc_oc=AQncurZxzsiZ8mfZJABwVaKsYIQ6PQ23fophl6V2dnBzwZyYFNRAn49eEtQwvPwF2IA&_nc_ht=scontent.flhr2-1.fna&oh=cf012cf2376e8a44dd0e0c641881dbbe&oe=5DF2EC09\n\nWe must first notice that the movie is happening. In my last post I spoke at length about how being present in the 'here and now' gives you a platform from which to notice such movies playing along in the background. Those are the movies that bring us down into the dumps without us even knowing why. I have said allowed many times that 'I feel really awful today and nothing has even happened to me!'\nOnce we have noticed the movie we can decide to walk out of the cinema. We can start to see what meanings we have attached upon events or experiences. We can start to see that those meanings are hurting us.\nThe key is to realise where the movies are coming from. Realise that they are not real, they are only movies that you produced and they are not true. Realise that you do not have to believe that meaning. Do not dwell on the movie, for if you do, you feed it. You give it strength. You will poison yourself.\nGet yourself a alternate distraction. Feed yourself something else more healthy. Prepare pastimes or hobbies as distraction tools (mine is gaming or song writing). You must be more determined than the movie, because it may come around again and again, over and over. Realise that if it is not fed, then it will die. It will lose its power and fade away.\nYou do not have to feel such types of pain for any unnecessary lengthy period of time. This is your life. You are responsible for you. Your thoughts and therefore your actions are your responsibility. There is not one person upon this earth who shares this responsibility. It is yours alone.\n\nYou have a limited time here. Every second that ticks by is a second less than you had before. Everything is temporary and that includes you. Even more reasons to respond to your pain. Your mind spills out upon the world as you pass through it. It spills upon you and the ones you love and even the people you pass in the street. For the remainder of your life you will spill upon everything and every person you have even the smallest of relationships with. It is your responsibility to ensure that you overflow with the good stuff. Then you can share it around. That is called evolving. That is what is meant by vibrating higher. Put in the effort and it will pay off. You can free yourself from the majority of life's anxieties and pain. Every single sage, monk and wise-man knows this to be true. Your time is now!\nI saw a quote somewhere and it has stuck with me ever since. 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