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      "body": "We're not in love.\nWe share no stories.\nOur stories don't interwine,\nJust something in your eyes.\n\nDon't be afraid,\nThe shadows know me.\n\nLet's leave the world behind.\n\nTake me through the night,\nFall in to the dark side!\n\nWe don't need the light!\n\nI see it,\nLet's feel it!\n\nLet go of the light,\nFall into the dark side!\n\nFall into the dark side,\nLet go of the light,\nGive in to the dark side.\n\nBeneath the sky,\nAs black as a goodbye,\nI give a sigh,\nWe're running out of time...\n\nDon't wait for truth,\nTo come and blind us...\nLet's just believe the lies.\n\nAfter all, that's all there is!\n\nBelieve it,\nI see it,\nI know that you can feel it.\n\nNo secrets worth keeping,\nNothing worth seeking,\nIn the light.\n\nShadows creeping,\nYour light version weeping,\nDark version sleeping.\n\nYour time is up,\nThis place is corrupt,\nLet's live on the dark side!",
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