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Even when I was outside of myself, I felt like I had to bring myself along, the ego had to be strapped into the car seat. I’ve never been satisfied with the person I got stuck with for this life, I’m asinine, I don’t make up for it with profound spiritual gifts, I can be spiteful, I hate the flaws in others that I see in myself, and, I’m inclined to sabotage myself as a gnarly means to reinvent my intellectual body. Most of my life has been touched by avoidable failure.\n\n![wilson.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmfQz45G7saJFun8V8QLqXQBetngdq46JfAwq4GkLBH92A/wilson.jpg)\nI began to feel more and more like Tom Hanks in Cast Away with only a volleyball to talk to, but I was actually the volleyball, just aware enough to see how incurably stupid I am. I couldn’t even wake up enough to tell someone that I was drowning somewhere in my frontal lobe. 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Everything is literally in your head, the sun, your friend, a tree, geometry, it is all an internal occurrence. This is, of course, an elementary concept. I’ve entertained solipsism, the simulation theory, innatism, I’ve been confronted with this before, but maybe it was the narrator’s English accent, that made me spiral. \\n\\tThe more I became aware of this possible total internal conception of the world around me the more the definitions and assumptions that I constructed about life and consciousness crumbled. What became more concrete was the fact that I wasn’t interacting with the real world and frankly never would. A firing of synapses painted the world and my perception of it, coloring it in with sensations. I was looking through a VR headset that couldn’t be removed. I will always be trapped within my own perception of the concrete world and the other worlds above and below it, but that’s what I wanted right? Perfect individualism is the highest attainable goal. But,  I began to feel weighed down by the confines of myself. Even when I was outside of myself, I felt like I had to bring myself along, the ego had to be strapped into the car seat. I’ve never been satisfied with the person I got stuck with for this life, I’m asinine, I don’t make up for it with profound spiritual gifts, I can be spiteful, I hate the flaws in others that I see in myself, and, I’m inclined to sabotage myself as a gnarly means to reinvent my intellectual body. Most of my life has been touched by avoidable failure.\\n\\tI began to feel more and more like Tom Hanks in Cast Away with only a volleyball to talk to, but I was actually the volleyball, just aware enough to see how incurably stupid I am. I couldn’t even wake up enough to tell someone that I was drowning somewhere in my frontal lobe. About a week after I listened to that audiobook I experienced exploding head syndrome which is likely a minute seizure in the temporal lobe, instead of your body powering everything off while you fall asleep, a glitch causes the auditory neurons to all fire at. It sounded like a missile being shot off through the top of my head. This was likely caused by the stress that I had already put my thinking mind under, but it just acted as a further confirmation that I was creating everything around me both visual and auditory.\\n\\tThis hasn’t particularly made me a fun person to be around, I’m caught somewhere else, basic word recall, and my memory often evades me. Others automatically make the basic expectation that I will be present with them but it has been increasingly hard to do so. I resented others, I couldn’t understand how someone can live as an individual and go on unimpeded by the pain that seems to so naturally accompany it. Assuming that they also exist, and are not just trapped in my head with me, but rather exist behind their own set of VR goggles where I too am trapped. I understand that in many cases this is obtuse, there are many individuals who are so elevated that they can forgo the pain, they can release themselves from the existential suffering. But, I am not one of those individuals. I know that the only way that I could ever let the pain go and to finally evolve into the final stage of my individual is to meet it and to let it teach me. 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