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At this point, all of those, who are looking at spirituality from a distance, we could say \"as a hobby\", are separated from those of us, who gave our lives and existence in the hands of our soul, our divine I AM presence and allowed ourselves the big trust, the mind can only dream of. Being a creator means only one thing. I exist - and that's it. Everything else is just an expression of that. In this space of deeper and deeper trust in yourself, miracles begin to happen.\n\nHowever, it is necessary, to be 'prepared'. The process of enlightenment does indeed eat you alive, points out all your limitations and pains, clears everything you thought you were in order to discover who you truly ARE. The creator, divine being, consciousness - expression is not essential. 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You picked them up during lifetimes on Earth and even before that. There are layers, layers of lies and in a certain moment you realize after all, what kind of illusion and game it all was. This is when you get angry, you weep and laugh - you become aware, you were the creator the whole time and how easy it is to step out of the 'old way of living'. Like you would leave the bus on the first station or walk away from a card game, when you feel like doing it (well, old passions, attachments and people want to drag you right back into it, but when you are determined enough, it's already chosen).\n\nDid I excite you about completely discovering and following yourself? I don't know and I don't care. It is a personal process. Intimate experience without comparison. Each and everyone can only choose it for themselves. I could have told you already at the beginning, that once you are here, there is no way back. You can try and you will. 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Each and everyone of us creates everything, although one might really not be aware of that in certain moment.\n\nAnd all of you, who are reading this article, are absolutely at the point, when you wish to consciously create your life. Noone gets in touch with these words by coincidence. Everything happens at the exactly right time and in the embrace of completely perfect circumstances. Ok, let me finish this segment. So, when you don't take responsibility and you push away certain parts of yourself, which are often expressed also through other people, you allow the aspect of yourself, the one that feels like victim and not the creator, to play the leading role and lead your life from a really limited perspective.\n\nHow long are you going to keep allowing this? How much longer are you going to torture yourself and try to put everything in an \"ideal\" scenario? 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