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How many amazingly beautiful things do we miss in a day, simply because of the pace of our lives and the intense focus on getting to the next thing?\n\nThese two paragraphs are taken directly from the Week 2 section of palousemindfulness.com, because I'm in Week 2 of following that program - and I have completed the “classwork” which starts with said paragraphs. \n\nWhen I read them, I said to myself, well, music really moves me so I don’t think I would have walked by, and I’m pretty sure I would recognize Joshua freaking Bell. \n\nRight after I thought those things, I watched a video for Week 2 called The Monkey Business Illusion, and I had never seen it before. It’s here:\n\nhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ux1cL7tHjlI&list=PLbiVpU59JkValOIEIo2Y65mBopHCjKvBo&index=1\n\nPlus I learned a few more things about the day Joshua Bell played in the DC subway. He wore a baseball hat and non-descript clothes, and it was rush hour.\n\nSo yep. I take it back.  Good chance I would have bustled right by like almost everyone else.  If you watch the vid, I suspect you’ll be able to guess why I changed my mind about my observation powers. \n\nI failed the video. I can’t tell you why exactly because that would be a “spoiler,” but, again, you’ll know if you watch.  Maybe you’ll fail it too.  \n\nI’m glad I watched it because it adds to my resolve for this class and incorporating meditation into my life.  Meditaiton may be the step change we need to make us, the human race, better. It’s at least part of it.  If we’re aware, there’s a better chance we’ll stop wrecking the planet and each other. If we start with ourselves, start paying attention, one by one we improve the whole.  Yeah?\n\nOk. Preachy. Blick.\n\nSo about this week’s teachings and what a week’s worth of the Body Scan has done for me.  \n\nBody Scan\nWhat appears to be true is that I am completely out of touch and out of sync with my body.  Drop down into your body. Feel your body. Be in your body. Yeah. No. I have learned I do not compute these phrases. I don’t know what they mean. I am way into my head. Way in. I need to break out of there.  So it’s a good thing in Week 2 I am to continue with the Body Scan alternating with the Sitting Meditation. I also find the Body Scan is much better if I don’t fall asleep. I know. Mind blowing.  Literally it turns out.  Today I did not fall asleep, and I was consciously aware of the many times I was taken away by own thoughts. Like 100 bazillion times. But I was able to bring myself back to my breath each time, although the time it took to get back varied. But this is something. \n\nWeek 2 Teachings\nThis week’s stuff shares more about the science / psychology of why meditation is good which I, for one, appreciate.  I need to be reminded of the benefits. Otherwise I get wrapped up in my shit, forget what I’m doing and why, and my commitment recedes.  So I watched the vids and read the articles.\n\nShauna Shapiro was back, this time with Mindful Meditation and the Brain, followed by Measuring Mindfulness with Judson Brewer, then Life Is Right Now and Coming to Our Senses with Jon Kabat-Zinn, who I am now madly in love with, and All It Takes Is 10 Mindful Minutes with Andy Puddicombe which, I am happy to report, is a Ted Talk I had seen before but that I had forgotten, which I am less happy to report.\n\nThey’re all on the palousemindfulness.com site and on youtube: \n\nhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6hybxLidgA&index=2&list=PLbiVpU59JkValOIEIo2Y65mBopHCjKvBo\n\nHere are the things that struck me as important to call out:\n\n**You can change the very structure of your brain.**\nUntil very recently commonly held belief was your adult brain can’t be changed. Ok. I think I had heard about this somewhere. (If you’re saying to yourself, yeah, everyone knows that, my retort is, look, I was an international studies and French double major which was very rigorous and that I was busy not going to class or studying for.  So I did not get to take many elective classes like psychology 101.  I bemoan this, because it turns out I am far more interested in psychology, and pretty much everything else, than politics but that’s spilt milk.) If it were true, the implications for our not being able to change our brains are big and grim, particularly since this belief led to two logical but erroneous conclusions that had not been debunked until just recently thanks to a study conducted by Richie Davidson, PhD, at University of Wisconsin Madison.\n\nThe first of these is that each person has a happiness “set point,” and no amount of joy or tragedy can prevent the return to that set point. This was news to me, and I’m glad I didn’t know about this until now because I would have been more depressed more often knowing I has no chance of altering my state of general malaise. For naturally happy, non-neurotic people, this is not upsetting. For the rest of us, it can be quite upsetting.  Even worse than learning you would not be a Crawley in Downton Abbey had you lived then, but rather the help, for example. \n\nHowever, since this was first posited, we have become besotted with the Dalai Lama and Buddhism, and Western science and Eastern philosophies have joined forces to bring very helpful, hopeful information into the light including that we too can change our brains.\n\nThe rub is no external force or thing can change our brains for us.  No amount of money, or kitchen gadgets, or tech toys, or vacations in the Seychelles can change our brains and make us happier. 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Since I have been reading about meditation, I have noticed how frequently my emotions, and my desires, change and change wildly, sometimes minute to minute, sometimes hour to hour.  It’s crazy, but at the same time, it’s not, not really. It’s actually very normal for many of us, particularly the pubescent, testosterone-soaked male, and the peri-menopausal, estrogen depleted female like me.  Emotions are largely chemically induced by hormones, and they make us do really stupid shit unless we’re aware of them and know they’re mucking about our brains and bodies and causing us great confusion. \n\nSince hormones fluctuate so do emotions, and therefore both are unpredictable and unreliable. Is that an oversimplification? Sure, but almost everything is an oversimplification because life is very complex, and in order for us to operate in it, things need to be boiled down from time to time. Yes, this can be problematic but put that aside for the moment.  The point here is emotions swing even within the same set of circumstances.  Emotions are not truth tellers or indicators or predictors. They are quite the opposite and often completely untrustworthy.  Yet they are responsible for countless decisions we make each day. Yikes! I can attest that I have acted on my emotions many times, and I am lucky I am not extremely poor or extremely dead as a result.\n\nThat all said, there’s nothing wrong with thinking and emotions can be wonderful.  These things have defined and progressed humanity. We simply need to balance out the thinking and the emotions with awareness for them and their impacts on us so we can be present in our own lives…because our lives are fleeting.     \n\n**We are lost in thought 47% of the time. That’s being lost half our lives.**\nAndy Puddicombe leads with this but does not get into what we’re doing the rest of the time. Could I be lost in my thoughts 100% of the time, and therefore wholly lost?  Probably not but I bet I’m lost more in my thoughts than your average Josephine, and they aren’t that great the majority of these thoughts, so I’d just as soon not be.\n\nAnd here’s thing, skeptics and /or critical thinkers.  What is the downside to acknowledging even some of this is true and giving meditation a whirl? Seriously.  What is it?  You may “waste” 30 minutes of your day?  Well I waste 30 minutes of my day dicking around on Pinterest collecting recipes I will never make so I’m jostling my pressing recipe-collecting and Netflix-watching activities around a bit to accommodate some sitting and scanning. If you’re heterosexual woman with kids, a super-charged job and a husband, you are off the hook. You probably need the meditation, so if you squeeze in two minutes of stillness, you’re my hero. If you can’t, well you can’t.  If you’re a heterosexual man with the above, swapping out husband for wife, get over yourself.  This may be judgmental and a generalization, but you are not doing a 1/16th of what your spouse is.  You can work it in if you want.\n\nOMG that is so badgering. I will beat myself up later for it if it’s any consolation. In the meantime, I am off to practice compassion for self and others and meditate.\n\nIf first time reader, this is a series.  Background maybe be helpful.  See below.\n\nI started what I’m calling the meditation odyssey on Sun., Oct. 1. For those of you who have not read anything to date, which is most if not quite all of you, I will briefly recap what I’m doing and why. \n\nTo work with / understand / come to terms with my current dissatisfaction with life and self, I’m going to travel inwards on a “meditation odyssey” so I can be a person I like, or like the person I am (these are not the same thing) and live my life as fully and wholly as possible.  Or at least know I tried.  We’re only in this particular life once, and I’d like to make the most of it.  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      "body": "I started what I’m calling the meditation odyssey on Sun., Oct. 1.\n\nFor those of you who did not read my intro, which is most, if not quite all, of you, I will briefly recap what I’m doing and why. \n\nTo work with / understand / come to terms with my current dissatisfaction with life and self, I’m going to travel inwards on a “meditation odyssey” so I can be a person I like, or like the person I am (these are not the same thing) and live my life as fully and wholly as possible.  Or at least know I tried.  We’re only in this particular life once, and I’d like to make the most of it.  And if reincarnation does exist, it doesn’t hurt to have accumulated a little wisdom in the life before...evolve one’s karma and all that so as to avoid winding up as a male praying mantis or such in the next go round.\n\nSo……   I’m following the “free” meditation course here https://palousemindfulness.com/ that mirrors the Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) program founded by Jon Kabat-Zinn at the University of Massachusetts Medical School. It’s online, self-guided and “taught” by certified MBSR instructor Dave Potter (I called him Jeff Potter in my first intro post which I have since corrected.  I do apologize Mr. Dave Potter!)\n\nIt’s an eight week program, and my goal is to share what I learn here on SteemIt and ultimately complete the thing and make meditation and mindfulness a life-long habit.  I’ve had this goal before. I’m trying again. I have trouble with life affirming, healthy habits. I’m great with habits like drinking and smoking, although I have quit the latter, for the fifth or so time. I also drink quite a bit less and with moderation, often but not always.\n\nSo this is day 4 in week 1.  On the first day, Sunday, I followed directions, which in itself is a feat, and I did the worksheet you’re to complete before you start.  This is what my sheet says. It’s kinda hard to read. Sorry.\n\n![MBSR getting started sheet.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmXSVh2y6nNykAVM3ecfGexYHUBKC4iRUvprGD7pZon7Py/MBSR%20getting%20started%20sheet.png)\n\nThen I spent the better part of the day reviewing all of the prep materials for the week…when I wasn’t popping up every five minutes to do something else that had to be done at that very same moment, that is.  It took me 40 minutes to watch the first 14 minute video for God’s sake. Because I realized I needed tea, and then I washed dishes while the water boiled for the tea and snacked on these fabulous onion and sea salt cashews while the tea steeped, and then resumed the video only to pause it shortly thereafter because I needed a tissue and realized the cats were hungry and fed them, and what the hell?!!?  But I was mindful about being distracted and noticed my craziness so that’s something. Right?  And it is a great video so I have no idea why I couldn’t just sit and watch it!  But whatever.  \n\nI settled down eventually and got through all of the required material for week one. Four videos, four articles and the first meditation, a body scan for 30 minutes.\n\nThe first two videos are Ted Talks, and they are awesome: The Power of Mindfulness with Shauna Shapiro, and Don’t Try to Be Mindful with Daron Larson.  Never heard of either of these people before, but I took away several good things from both.  \n\n1.\tThe first talked about the idea of mindfulness being about “intentional kind attention”…rather than just attention.  This is nice. However according to Shauna, and I do hope I may call her Shauna, this means I’m to get up every day and say “Good morning, I love you Jen.” That’s me. I’m Jen.  And I say to that oh ick.  Shauna admits this is ick.  I don’t know if I can do it.  But this is not the first time I have heard this is important to do. It’s noted.  We’ll see.  Nothin’ doin so far.\n\n2.\tNow Daron says “meditation is about changing your relationship with discomfort.” Yes. Good. I am down with that since I am uncomfortable with discomfort.  Now drinking, drugs and smoking have been quite helpful in the past offsetting unsettledness.  But as we’ve been told, over and over, there are consequences to relying on these vices too frequently, and I don’t want to be towing around an oxygen tank in my wheelchair at 60, which now that I’m 50, is getting damn close for comfort. We can’t all be Keith Richards.  That man defies nature and the surgeon general.\n\nThese two videos are followed by a four-minute video vignette from John Kabat Zinn about befriending, rather than fixing, our bodies and reinforcement that more is right with us than wrong with us. Ok.  Lovely.\n\nLast is the “raisin meditation” video with Dave (not Jeff) Potter.  I loved the raisin meditation, and I’m not just saying that to suck up to Dave because I got his name wrong in my intro post and I don’t want him to hold it against me, even though the man has no idea I exist of course.  Except I did request to lurk on the facebook page for people taking the course, and that email may go to Dave.\n\nNevermind. The raisin meditation was fun because it involved contemplating and then eating food. Raisins…in case that was unclear. Now I did not have raisins so I improvised and used dates. So you get two raisins or dates or whatever and a glass of water and then you summon your senses, one by one, and commune with the first raisin date.  And you do not start with taste.  Did you eat your raisin dates already?  Taste is last you lovely ninnies.\n\nHere are my dates (I am trying very hard  to include pictures in these posts so don't give me any grief about posting a pic of dates!)\n\n![dates.JPG](https://steemitimages.com/DQmNfWyyW8DAksQGYnTNNai4KPEQMPyMuDG9DaCJMDRTo1m/dates.JPG)\n\nStart with date 1.  First, look at it…and all its wrinkles and its shiny, waxy, caramelized surface…OMG…it’s Keith Richards face!  Hahahahahaha!  Kidding.\n\nThen if you have a date and not a raisin, check out the hollow center and the color variations. Hold it up to the light!  It does too have color variations!\n\nSo you’re touching it now, ‘cause you had to, to hold it up to the light, and it feels sticky and bumpy and craggy.  Then you smell it…sugary, syrupy, sweet…then you listen to it. Yep, like a conch shell, you hold it up to your ear and oddly, if you help it a bit by rolling it between your fingers, it sighs and squeaks!   \n\nThen you get to slowly pop it in to your mouth.  And you’re not supposed to bite down and chew, but rather roll it about inside your mouth and pay attention to what it feels like and let it slowly melt. I tell you I held the date in my mouth for almost the whole video, so like 10 minutes.  \n\nThen you have yourself a drink of water and when your first raisin date has fully broken down, you get to have the second one while you consider the composition and journey of the raisin date. To be a raisin date that finds its way to your mouth, it drew warmth from the sun and nutrients from the soil to grow. Someone had to tend it and pick it.  And then it needed to be packed and packaged and trucked and flown and stored. By other people for your benefit.  And that transport took fuel that someone had to drill for and pour into barrels and so on and so on.  All of this is in the date.  The date is everything and everything is the date.  And that means everything and everyone is inter-connected. When we understand and remember that, we can believe in and practice intentional kind attention. \n\nThis is important.  This is what will make life better for all of us.\n\nSo if this is interesting to you, you can find all four videos in sequence here: \n\nhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B49Ls4gl07Y&list=PLbiVpU59JkVbNfFyAG4SrC8NGnC0-D4jg&index=1\n\nSeriously. They are worth the combined 40 minutes it takes to watch them.\n\nOf course, if you want to do the whole program, rock on. Or rather,  sit on. Go here to get the skinny: https://palousemindfulness.com/index.html\n\nThere were four articles too which I dutifully read, and you can get them from the aforetyped link as well.\n\nThey are “The Body Scan Meditation” by Jon Kabat Zin; “7 Myths of Meditation” by Deepak Chopra who is a celebrity meditator which I notice chafes me slightly and that is probably unfair so I will choose to ignore the chafing; “Why We Find It Hard to Meditate” by Ed and Deb Shapiro who I have never heard of and who didn’t address why I haven’t done it which is because I choose to do something or nothing else instead; and “What Would It Take for You to Be Still” by Catherine Price who wrote the article for Oprah magazine.  Oprah is another celebrity who happens to be using her fame to promote meditation.  Celebritization / Popularization of serious topics usually waters them down to the lowest common denominator but who cares I say. If meditation reaches the hinterlands of Pennsylvania, Alabama and Arkansas and the like even in its most basic form, society has been advanced. (I’m from Pennsylvania so I can write that.  If you're from California, you can't.  I didn't make the rules.) So you go Oprah and Deepak!  (Like they need my support and encouragement.)\n\nSo I did all of that and meditated.  The first week the meditation exercise is the body scan which is why you read about it. There’s an audio recording on the site to use. It’s a lying down meditation, and it’s about 30 minutes.  Like shavasana in yoga.  \n\nOn Sunday I did not fall asleep when I did it but my mind wandered all over the place.  Monday and Tuesday I did it in bed at bedtime. This is unwise unless you have trouble falling asleep or have insomnia. Then it’s a great move because it puts you to sleep. Typically insomnia is not an issue I have so I will need to change this up.  Maybe I’ll do it on the floor in my bedroom but not in my bed.  Maybe I will try and do it before bedtime. I’ll let you know.  \n\nAll in all this seems to me to be a very gentle and kind way to ease into meditation, and being me, and this is without doubt part of the problem, I’m not sure like it.  What’s not to like you say. All that’s being asked of you is to lie down and stay there.  Get in tune with your body. Go with that. \n\nWell, I am going with it but since I’m not a gentle-and-kind-with-self kinda girl, it doesn’t feel like it’s as difficult as it should be.  I’m not part of any off-center opus dei or Mormon cult where physical self-abuse is the order of the day, so don’t misunderstand. But on the other hand, “mental” inner kindness does not come naturally or easy or ever to me either.  So while this is not breeze-in-the-pants easy (yeah, I have no idea what that means either), it’s far from agony. Sitting still and straight with no audio guide for three hours is.  I know ‘cause I’ve tried it. 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This is at best disappointing and at worst depressing…to be abundantly clear, not that I party less, but that I don’t feel more comfortable in my own skin.  \n\nI’m not chasing the happiness pill because I find that both a tad trendy and wee bit lofty, but I’m equally not interested in spending the balance of my life unfulfilled, depressed, anxious or some combination therein. The brooding, dark, edgy groove, which I found alluring and worth emulating for many years, has lost its luster.  For me personally.  In the spirit of full disclosure, I remain hopelessly drawn to these qualities in other people which probably explains my heretofore unstable love life. But that’s another story.  Let’s move on.\n\nSo this is what I’m going to do.  I’m going to embrace my inner resilience, and I’m going on a Meditation Odyssey.  It’s not as sexy as eating in Italy, praying in India and loving in Bali, but I have a job and responsibilities that I can’t drop for a year-long flit about the globe, much as I’d like to believe me, so I’m going to stay put and travel inward.\n\nI would love to have you join me either by reading about how it’s going here on SteemIt, by starting a practice yourself along with me, or by doing both.\n\nMy plan is to follow the “free” meditation program here https://palousemindfulness.com/ based on the Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) program founded by Jon Kabat-Zinn at the University of Massachusetts Medical School. It’s online, self-guided and “taught” by certified MBSR instructor Jeff Potter.  \n\nI will share more about MBSR and why I chose it in a future post…since this intro is getting a bit out of hand length wise.\nThere are many variations and approaches to meditation /mindfulness.  I may switch or branch out to other methods down the line. 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I’ve been to almost every continent – no Aussieland yet - many times over. \n\nI can speak French, particularly after I’ve been in the country for a few weeks.\n\nI find travel for pleasure invigorating. I want and need to do more of it.  Except for the business class / first class part, which I adore, I find travel for business a drag.\n\nI loved cities until I was 35. Now I love them less.\n\nI am not a mountain or beach person. I am a mountain and beach person.\n\nI live in a small town on the East Coast of the US, not by choice but by chance. It is a lovely place, but I do not fit here.  I make the best and worst of it. \n\nI love all animals, hummingbirds, my cats and my parrots in particular. Yes. I have parrots and cats. Yes, they get along.  They are all rescue animals, and they are fabulous.  If I make any money on this thing, at least 10% will go to animal rescue, primarily to parrots because they are the third most popular pet, they live as long as we do if not longer, and people ditch them like crazy because “they had no idea” about their care, traits or lifespan.  Short attention spans, and lack of understanding aka stupidity.  That’s why parrots shouldn’t be pets. Don’t get me started. \n\nI am a music nut and my tastes are wide and varied but my number one band of all time is The Allman Brothers. I miss Gregg Allman.  I love Dicky Betts even though he has issues.  I wish Dicky and Greg would have reconciled and played together again before Gregg died.  Someday I’ll list the other thousand favorite bands.\n\nI swoon over books and have countless favorites. No one book stands above the rest.\n\nOne of my favorite quotes, and I have many, is from poet W.H. 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These were not idyllic times.\n\nI love movies but it’s a rare day that I go to a theatre.\n\nI have never posted anything on Facebook.  At least I don’t think I have.\n\nFood is both friend and foe. I cannot kick the habit of coveting super thinness. And I cannot kick the habit of eating for more than only sustenance and believing food is an adventure and delight.  This makes for a senseless, never-ending battle that waxes and wanes.  I hate it.  I have a friend who dieted by eating perfectly-portioned amounts of salmon, brown rice and broccoli every day for lunch for six months.  I neither could nor would ever want to do that.  She’s an engineer.  Enough said.  \n\nI clash with engineers and linear thinkers in general.  Less so if they are women.  \n\nI am dismayed at the hype around the STEM fields as if the uber focus on these areas is new.  It is not new nor is it new for women to have to work  harder to break in to male-dominated fields. Until a few short years ago, all fields were male dominated including the larger “playing field” called the planet.  I will likely address this whole topic in a post of its own, but in short, the reason I am dismayed is because the focus on STEM, despite the fact that “they” have now expanded the acronym to STEAM, is once again the almighty left brain…to the exclusion of the right brain.  We need to encourage and develop both.  All STEM all the time will make for a very lop-sided, very colorless, incredibly oppressive, rigid world.  Hitler Germany was very STEM-y, for example. You feel me?  If you don’t know what STEM or STEAM is, google it or look for a future post on this.  I have way too much to say about this topic.\n\nI collect recipes and cook in spurts.\n\nI admire and treasure beauty.  Natural and manmade.  Classic, atypical, weird, offbeat.  Art, words, music, woods, gardens, clothes, furniture, buildings, faces, bodies, animal, mineral, vegetable.  \n\nI do not like and I do not trust politicians when they are being politicians.  They have made and are making an unholy mess of everything.  When they are being human beings, I’m sure many of them are fine.  I do not know this for a fact however because \nI don’t know any politicians personally.  \n\nI find this cult of celebrity we’re in sad and alarming. I don’t think it’s going away.\n\nI live alone and like anything it has its good points and not-so-good.\n\nI regularly see a therapist. I have been “diagnosed” ADHD and gifted. I don’t take medication for either, and I don’t know if either diagnosis is accurate.  Said therapist also says I’m an abstract conceptual thinker. I didn’t know that was a thing.  Regardless it makes my inner life very interesting and my outer life challenging. 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It’s a fascinating, mysterious topic, and I don’t think it gets enough airtime.    \n\nI think and type kinda fast so I tend towards typos. I read over my stuff lots of time but I still miss the little twerps. Sorry.\n\nI will contradict myself.  Look, I don’t have any more answers than you do. But I like the exploration and sometimes that means \nI backtrack, sidetrack or change tracks. \n\nI pee really fast when there’s a line for the bathroom, like at shows, and I do not TP the stall. You’re welcome.  \n\nThis is more than plenty about me except that I am awestruck about how many \"Is\" are in this, and I'm feeling like this is such a narcissistic exercise.  Yikes.  That said,   it was fun, although we are all more, or maybe less depending on your perspective, than our likes, dislikes, skills and weaknesses.  Plus, we change constantly and therefore so do our opinions…if we’re lucky enough and willing to evolve.\n\nCiao for now.",
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