{
  "trx_id": "56f23fad0b9506dafbdf31d82d7050608ef0ed0f",
  "block": 106140389,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2026-05-17T21:41:36",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "7116.516986 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "fda9c010740f2f3c6104f139584109a5b084b4cc",
  "block": 105964552,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2026-05-11T18:30:48",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "4404.306581 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "4c961151d3642710107f55f340bc556e6735f1a7",
  "block": 105508115,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2026-04-25T21:06:33",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "7129.032742 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "f4f502b7cb0cea53197e74ce7405287ab66f5803",
  "block": 102843715,
  "trx_in_block": 7,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2026-01-23T01:02:18",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "4445.853400 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "af75fb4a79f2327d786f2156e5b63a875127e786",
  "block": 91290136,
  "trx_in_block": 2,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2024-12-16T20:22:18",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "4610.072597 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "964c8525d63be37debc5f4293c4bcdca1b616be7",
  "block": 79844417,
  "trx_in_block": 4,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2023-11-13T12:08:18",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "4779.206129 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "4d65d3e0eb29deeaccb2cf737abf20abee693ec3",
  "block": 78344268,
  "trx_in_block": 8,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2023-09-21T18:51:00",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "7716.484915 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "794bfd195c4777555537dd80e85f4b7a192094ba",
  "block": 69110008,
  "trx_in_block": 2,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2022-11-03T08:58:54",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "7938.166353 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "06b26689cf4c61612e7c3104c564ff2b7aee35c3",
  "block": 60806452,
  "trx_in_block": 21,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2022-01-17T08:28:18",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8158.699584 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "982f7f652795eda30021933aa6126d69076308a3",
  "block": 54604964,
  "trx_in_block": 5,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2021-06-13T22:29:45",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8342.468242 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "b2da7ea5fe0fcbcc165f8a937c07cdc4cd9f9008",
  "block": 49352522,
  "trx_in_block": 2,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2020-12-11T08:52:06",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8529.890216 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "9b26ba28aff3cd0d1bddaf6b2e11218f30cef23e",
  "block": 49204090,
  "trx_in_block": 4,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2020-12-06T02:29:36",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "1912.543513 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "a51ab7d5d7915348f35c037a0b54f56ba02f3af2",
  "block": 48908400,
  "trx_in_block": 4,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2020-11-25T16:24:09",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8547.016833 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "b9d3a338ab18f40e8c36ad85f9fc0d59c96f2eaf",
  "block": 43214302,
  "trx_in_block": 2,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2020-05-09T03:24:27",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8738.903429 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "16905de4530f9a346dc058e493f81f8fb4921f58",
  "block": 43189990,
  "trx_in_block": 3,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2020-05-08T06:39:42",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "1953.311140 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "3af99064e61d947b0279ee52c3ba0d9785c213c7",
  "block": 42291376,
  "trx_in_block": 4,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2020-04-06T06:12:27",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8756.830288 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "6e1ad9280b350d3e45b72bfc32a6b41164d75f37",
  "block": 38116880,
  "trx_in_block": 5,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2019-11-12T18:15:27",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "astrayingline",
      "parent_permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-fim-in-shadow-part-2",
      "author": "steemitboard",
      "permlink": "steemitboard-notify-astrayingline-20191112t181526000z",
      "title": "",
      "body": "Congratulations @astrayingline! You received a personal award!\n\n<table><tr><td>https://steemitimages.com/70x70/http://steemitboard.com/@astrayingline/birthday2.png</td><td>Happy Birthday! - You are on the Steem blockchain for 2 years!</td></tr></table>\n\n<sub>_You can view [your badges on your Steem Board](https://steemitboard.com/@astrayingline) and compare to others on the [Steem Ranking](https://steemitboard.com/ranking/index.php?name=astrayingline)_</sub>\n\n\n**Do not miss the last post from @steemitboard:**\n<table><tr><td><a href=\"https://steemit.com/steemfest/@steemitboard/steemfest-meet-the-stemians-contest-the-mysterious-rule-revealed\"><img src=\"https://steemitimages.com/64x128/https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmasWw4jQHwxng82DKxY6Q6tVg9mWcto4xcDURs8knFgCa/image.png\"></a></td><td><a href=\"https://steemit.com/steemfest/@steemitboard/steemfest-meet-the-stemians-contest-the-mysterious-rule-revealed\">SteemFest Meet The Stemians Contest - The mysterious rule revealed</a></td></tr></table>\n\n###### [Vote for @Steemitboard as a witness](https://v2.steemconnect.com/sign/account-witness-vote?witness=steemitboard&approve=1) to get one more award and increased upvotes!",
      "json_metadata": "{\"image\":[\"https://steemitboard.com/img/notify.png\"]}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "0f52382e1b491f4f9fbd4b526f8038434b0b21be",
  "block": 32597311,
  "trx_in_block": 12,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2019-05-03T23:59:48",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "8952.542424 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "27403124055c6e74cc232373160372d324549f72",
  "block": 30686475,
  "trx_in_block": 28,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2019-02-26T13:18:06",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "astrayingline",
      "parent_permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-fim-in-shadow-part-2",
      "author": "partiko",
      "permlink": "partiko-re-astrayingline-analysis-of-the-short-fim-in-shadow-part-2-20190226t131806188z",
      "title": "",
      "body": "Hello @astrayingline! This is a friendly reminder that you have 3000 Partiko Points unclaimed in your Partiko account!\n\nPartiko is a fast and beautiful mobile app for Steem, and it’s the most popular Steem mobile app out there! Download Partiko using the link below and login using SteemConnect to claim your 3000 Partiko points! You can easily convert them into Steem token!\n\nhttps://partiko.app/referral/partiko\n\n![](https://d1vof77qrk4l5q.cloudfront.net/statics/partiko-poster-best-steem-app-for-your-phone.jpg)",
      "json_metadata": "{\"app\":\"partiko\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "3f483f1ef04ec323909fca79dee24a24fad78f86",
  "block": 29979951,
  "trx_in_block": 29,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2019-02-02T00:03:15",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "29069.361207 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "889f16cdaafc8c081e8c35cbbce0b1e06f456b15",
  "block": 29977641,
  "trx_in_block": 46,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2019-02-01T22:07:39",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-fim-in-shadow-part-2",
      "title": "Analysis of the short fim IN-SHADOW [Part 2]",
      "body": "https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\n\nLast time we left this around the 2:22 minute mark when we saw two masked figures embracing each other. The symbolism suggests that people have to go through two layers of ego in order to genuinely relate to another person. One layer is represented by their own ego, the other belongs to the other person. \"We are all searching for someone whose demons play well with ours\" says a quote whose author is unknown*. So we are all searching for someone who can accept our distortions, our shadows and the ways in which we have covered them up. Someone whose ego complements our own and doesn't mirror back our flaws.\n\nWe are then shown how out of this union, a child is born. The child comes from a place of unity, of perfection, of love. We see how pure the child is, and how perfect he is in his innocence. His connection to the divine is represented through the chakras, the energy centers of the body. These are the first illustrations that are depicted in harmonious colors as opposed to the dark colors that were used in the scenes before. This is in order to show the contrast between nature and nurture. The newborn is an embodiment of creative potential, while society is an embodiment of restrictive control.\n\n![23-divine child.png](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmPxbbpqaJ8zD6NBsha5q3etrqgiVgWDEXVPGMJzv2U2rZ/23-divine%20child.png)\n\nThe child is welcomed into the world in a hostile way. We see the mother's legs spread out on the operating table and almost immediately after he is born, he is vaccinated and taken out of that place of perfection. What is supposed to be a miraculous event, is treated like a perfunctory operation. The two figures by the bed seem very impersonal and lacking in any regard for the magnificence of life. The instruments they are holding make the birth scene seem like a horror film. This perhaps suggests the dangers of becoming a personification of the function you perform in society. When you identify with your role in society, you start objectifying yourself. This reminds me of Jean-Paul Sartre's concept of radical freedom. Radical freedom is when you do what you consider to be right, even when your role in society or the standards of the world demand that you do the opposite. Basically you always have a choice and saying otherwise is a refusal to take responsibility for your actions.\n\n>\"We only become what we are by the radical and deep seated refusal of that which others have made of us.\" — Jean-Paul Sartre\n\nThe birth experience is traumatizing and no effort is made to ease the transition. This is how the infant is introduced to human experience.\n\n![24-vaccine.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmTTkfxw3kVm4yLj4118FCnvcDpRPn2oawHrwfrcBN9mjc/24-vaccine.png)\n\nWe are then presented with a classroom full of children whose heads are encased in red cubes like the ones we saw earlier in the movie. The child in the center still retains some natural wonder about the world, some original thought, some creative capabilities which is suggested by the colors above his head. The two figures of an academic attire that can be seen in the background give the impression that this is an indoctrination chamber rather than a classroom. Curiosity, the pleasure of exploration, wonder - traits that are innate to every child - are lost here and replaced by dullness, submission and uniformity. \n\n![24-indoctrination.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmNmuhsPMGzeD5AVV9eZo6zxCF7CEtYnZbChhMdMqTSvpj/24-indoctrination.png)\n\nYou take children and you make them sit down for half a day, telling them what to believe and not allowing them to explore things in their own way, that is an assault on their spirit. The teachers practically drain the creativity out of their pupils and install a rigid belief system instead. The red cage represents the limits up to which they are allowed to explore with their imagination and curiosity. Infinite possibilities are reduced to a box of beliefs. Like the opposite of \"Think outside the box\". And there are many ways to prevent a child from going beyond these limits. Ridicule questions, discourage initiative, condemn disagreement, reward conformity, promote repetition, glorify test results. \n \n>“I feel very strongly that it is not enough to just live in the world as it is and just take what you are given, to follow the things that adults told you to do and that your parents told you to do and that society tells you to do. I think you should always be questioning. I take this very scientific attitude that everything you've learned is just provisional, that it's always open to recantation, refutation, or questioning. And I think the same applies to society. Growing up, I slowly had this process of realizing that all the things around me that people had told me were just the natural way things were, the way things always would be, they weren’t natural at all. They were things that could be changed, and they were things that, more importantly, were wrong and should change, and once I realized that, there was really no going back. I couldn't fool myself into saying 'Oh, I'm just going go work for a business and ignore all that'. Once I realized that there were real, serious problems, fundemental problems that I could do something to address, I didn't see a way to forget that [...] \n>\n>Even when I was in school I was very frustrated with school. I thought that teachers didn't know what they were talking about and they were very domineering and controlling and that homework was kind of a sham and it was all just like all about a way to pen students all together and force them to do busywork. And, you know, I started reading books about the history of education and how this educational system was developed, and alternatives to it and ways that people could actually learn things as opposed to just regurgitating facts that teachers told them and that kind of led me down this path of questioning things. Once I questioned the school I was in, I questioned the society that built the school. I questioned the businesses the schools were training people for. I questioned the government that set up this whole structure.” - Aaron Schwartz\n\n![trumanshow.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmXQa8tWjoPRfp1rFYDh1hwgyP12HG7bVwZtCquhKCgyVY/trumanshow.png)\n\nAnother aspect captured in these scenes is that schools are interested in developing mainly the intellect. There are hardly any activities that engage the body as well or that encourage creative expression. There is a great quote by Sir Ken Robinson regarding this:\n\n>\"Every education system on Earth has the same hierarchy of subjects. Every one. It doesn't matter where you go. You'd think it would be otherwise, but it isn't. At the top are mathematics and languages, then the humanities, and at the bottom are the arts. Everywhere on Earth.\n>\n>And in pretty much every system, too, there is a hierarchy within the arts. Music and art are normally given a higher status in schools than drama and dance. There isn't an education system on the planet that teaches dance every day to children the way we teach them mathematics.\n>\n>Why not? I think this is rather important. I think math is very important, but so is dance. Children dance all the time, if they're allowed to. We all do. We all have bodies, don't we? Did I miss a meeting? Truthfully what happens is that as children grow up, we start to educate them progressively from the waist up. And then we focus on their heads, and slightly to one side.\n>\n>Our education system is predicated on the idea of academic ability. And there's a reason for that. The whole system came into being to meet the needs of industrialism. So you were probably steered benignly away from things at school when you were a kid, things you liked, on the grounds that you would never get a job doing that: Don't do music; you're not going to be a musician. Don't do art; you won't be an artist. Then: benign advice. Now: profoundly mistaken.\n>\n>Our education system has mined our minds in the way that we strip-mine the earth: for a particular commodity. And for the future, it won't serve us.\"\n\nThis quote has been brilliantly illustrated by Zen Pencils:\nhttps://zenpencils.com/comic/kenrobinson/\n\nIn the following scene we see the teacher leading the children off a cliff, to their own demise. The children look as though they are in a trance, unsuspecting of the danger that awaits them ahead. Black smoke is coming out of the back of the teacher who does not seem aware of what he is doing, like he is carrying this burden out of inertia, having been subjected himself to the same kind of indoctrination. The smoke and the up and down motion of their march is reminiscent of trains, which suggests the mechanical nature of this behavior. This is also a metaphor for industry which is interested in children getting a particular kind of education, one that prepares them for employment. One that discourages them from pursuing what interests them, because otherwise they wouldn't have at their disposal a working hand willing to perform the boring jobs that they promote as valuable and admirable. One that prepares them for a new kind of submission to authority.\n\n![26-demise.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmSPHc8jpZxs1LcpzzETUnF8vZ6trfdxYhus9ugiFymxAe/26-demise.png)\n\nAfter the industrial revolution, it soon became apparent to those with prosperous businesses that in order to maintain their status, the people had to be kept in a state of subordination. And what better way to do that than to control the things they were thinking about? Slowly they found ways to manipulate public opinion and influence political figures in order for the educational system that they had devised to be widely adopted. \n\n>\" When you are at the top you spend a lot of time and money making sure you stay at the top and the last things these Robber Barons would allow is for the uprising of the middle class into their hierarchy.\n>\n>With such large controlling wealth through their foundations came a resilient web of many useful ‘friends’ in the politically arena and in business. With connections in banking, Wall Street, law firms, media executives and proprietors along with behind the scenes PR firms they could ensure any type publicity and financial backing they wished including the masking of their true agendas. Through the largess of their foundations the Rockefellers, Carnegie, Mellon, Vanderbilt, Morgan and Guggenheim Foundations colluded to begin the process of designing our current public education system.\" - Jamie Lee\n\nA good article detailing this (where the quote above is taken from) can be found here:\nhttp://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/01/28/untold-history-modern-u-s-education-founding-fathers/\n\nThe next things we see is how, during their fall, these children are turning into pills which land in the mouth of a young man. This marks the transition from childhood to adolescence. Between these two ages, the children are medicated and over-medicated as society is quick to label any form of inadaptability as a mental illness. If you have a short attention span in school or you don't conform to the rules or if you just don't find the subjects that are being taught stimulating , the system is quick to pin the problem on you. It's never that the subjects in school really are boring or that they are taught out of context or that they are useless. It's that you have ADHD and you have a problem focusing. So you have an excuse to drug children as early as age 7, maybe even earlier. And then you can watch them become compliant, but also losing their interest in the world around them, becoming desensitized. And that's how they reach adolescence and later adulthood.\n\n>“ADHD makes a great excuse, the diagnosis can be an easy-to-reach-for crutch. Moreover, there’s an attractive element to an ADHD diagnosis, especially in adults. It can be exciting to think of oneself as involved in many things at once, rather than stuck in a boring rut.” - Richard Saul\n\n![27-army.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmchtPKth69mCEb7MjBejoySQR9ysKNHE9pjm8cgrKVvTh/27-army.png)\n\nMany of these young men are lined up and sent to war to fight in the name of those same people that have indoctrinated them into compliance. They think they are doing something honorable, that they are protecting ideals and that they are sacrificing themselves for justice and freedom and democracy, but they are mere tools in the hands of those who know how to manipulate words, slaves to language and ideological tyranny. This is subtly illustrated here through the fact that all the young men have the same appearance. Their identity is insignificant to those above, all that matters is that they are able to wear a uniform and hold a weapon. The drugs in their mouths represent submission and renunciation of responsibility, the uniform represents the fact that they no longer belong to themselves and that they have assumed the role they have been assigned and the weapon held in an awkward way represents the lack of awareness of their destructive capabilities. It is only in war that they finally realize what they have agreed to participate in.\n\nWhile young men sacrifice themselves for their country and bring destruction to others, it is an entirely different scenario for business people. For them it's an opportunity to make money and that's all they need to know in order to get involved in pushing this agenda on people. Whether it's selling weapons, or exploiting resources or any sort of change in the political dynamic that benefits them, they have vested interests in war. This is represented by a smiling man dressed in a suit coming out of a coffin full of money. War is a money machine in the hands of those who have no respect or compassion for the people who have fought in it.\n\nPoliticians also benefit from this, as is illustrated through the two figures holding blood money to their chests. Is it just me or does the man on the right looks like Obama? I hear a lot of people saying that he was one of the best presidents America has ever had. And that makes me realize how powerful the media machine is. His policies were just as destructive as those during the Bush administration, if not worse, and yet people believe that he has done so much good. I think it is because he has the gift of charisma and diplomacy more so than his predecessors so that he is able to appear noble in his intentions. What he is really good at is manipulating words so that he can always evade accountability. Plus, of course, having giant media companies behind him, portraying him as a charming saint helps too. I guess it's about knowing how to play a role. Just like Bush played the role of the incompetent fool. Which is another way to evade accountability. But I digress.\n\n![28-politicians.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmd3yzSWryH59VA4Mkc6p1FZ77ZcYhAroyjNwA2LCWUsKS/28-politicians.png)\n\nThe two figures are standing on skulls, so they are desecrating the memory of those that died in war. The fact that they are smiling shows that they have no integrity or remorse for what they have done. As media shows up, they grow white wings and a white circle appears above their heads,  the money turn into flowers and one of the men is holding a baby. That is the power of television, it makes saints out of sinners and sinners out of saints.\n\nWorking on this, I have decided not to continue my analysis beyond this part. I think the power of this short film lies in the way it makes you feel and language can limit experience in a sense. This is pretty dark subject matter which is difficult to dive into, even though it has ... I don't wanna say a happy ending, but let's say it evolves towards revealing truth in its purest form. Which is something akin to how Adyashanti describes awakening:\n\n>\"To be this sincere with yourself may not be easy, initially. You may see things about yourself you don’t want to see. You may see the parts of yourself that stand in seemingly stark contrast to everything you have realized. Nonetheless, this is where awakening moves; awakening moves toward and into that which is not awake.\"\n\nMay you face your fears with courage!",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"shadow-work\",\"jung\",\"psychology\",\"embodiment\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmPxbbpqaJ8zD6NBsha5q3etrqgiVgWDEXVPGMJzv2U2rZ/23-divine%20child.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTTkfxw3kVm4yLj4118FCnvcDpRPn2oawHrwfrcBN9mjc/24-vaccine.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmNmuhsPMGzeD5AVV9eZo6zxCF7CEtYnZbChhMdMqTSvpj/24-indoctrination.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmXQa8tWjoPRfp1rFYDh1hwgyP12HG7bVwZtCquhKCgyVY/trumanshow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSPHc8jpZxs1LcpzzETUnF8vZ6trfdxYhus9ugiFymxAe/26-demise.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmchtPKth69mCEb7MjBejoySQR9ysKNHE9pjm8cgrKVvTh/27-army.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmd3yzSWryH59VA4Mkc6p1FZ77ZcYhAroyjNwA2LCWUsKS/28-politicians.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\",\"https://zenpencils.com/comic/kenrobinson/\",\"http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/01/28/untold-history-modern-u-s-education-founding-fathers/\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "4d33710d51647cc2d6764e05f85d3e0ae7f7c96e",
  "block": 27643279,
  "trx_in_block": 6,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2018-11-12T19:25:06",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "astrayingline",
      "parent_permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "author": "steemitboard",
      "permlink": "steemitboard-notify-astrayingline-20181112t192505000z",
      "title": "",
      "body": "Congratulations @astrayingline! You have received a personal award!\n\n[![](https://steemitimages.com/70x70/http://steemitboard.com/@astrayingline/birthday1.png)](http://steemitboard.com/@astrayingline)  1 Year on Steemit\n<sub>_Click on the badge to view your Board of Honor._</sub>\n\n\n**Do not miss the last post from @steemitboard:**\n<table><tr><td><a href=\"https://steemit.com/steemfest/@steemitboard/steemfest3-and-steemitboard-meet-the-steemians-contest\"><img src=\"https://steemitimages.com/64x128/https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmeLukvNFRsa7RURqsFpiLGEZZD49MiU52JtWmjS5S2wtW/image.png\"></a></td><td><a href=\"https://steemit.com/steemfest/@steemitboard/steemfest3-and-steemitboard-meet-the-steemians-contest\">SteemFest3 and SteemitBoard - Meet the Steemians Contest</a></td></tr></table>\n\n> Support [SteemitBoard's project](https://steemit.com/@steemitboard)! **[Vote for its witness](https://v2.steemconnect.com/sign/account-witness-vote?witness=steemitboard&approve=1)** and **get one more award**!",
      "json_metadata": "{\"image\":[\"https://steemitboard.com/img/notify.png\"]}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "ef23edf316284980c4f63fff2039d4a6fc2ceeaa",
  "block": 22489637,
  "trx_in_block": 15,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2018-05-16T20:06:48",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "9147.056088 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "c39f97b713ef233a2eaa01cd49c1b1b69bee1725",
  "block": 21771063,
  "trx_in_block": 21,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2018-04-21T20:38:45",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "29535.025128 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "0000000000000000000000000000000000000000",
  "block": 19262494,
  "trx_in_block": 4294967295,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 6,
  "timestamp": "2018-01-24T15:58:21",
  "op": [
    "curation_reward",
    {
      "curator": "astrayingline",
      "reward": "2.046796 VESTS",
      "comment_author": "in5d",
      "comment_permlink": "introducing-myself-20-things-you-probably-didn-t-know-about-me-gregg-prescott"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "8f94a14ab107ae98449a7365201dea2a42d94c58",
  "block": 19064507,
  "trx_in_block": 38,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2018-01-17T18:54:15",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "astrayingline",
      "author": "in5d",
      "permlink": "introducing-myself-20-things-you-probably-didn-t-know-about-me-gregg-prescott",
      "weight": 10000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "7dcf1254df32d10fa6fe1a29fba9fabcf9e8cde3",
  "block": 18054945,
  "trx_in_block": 16,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-13T16:59:00",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "mindsportsio",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "4abae8bbbcce7cad2b1af87d63d589c74521bb00",
  "block": 18048208,
  "trx_in_block": 8,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-13T11:21:54",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "mindsportsio",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "c7ec19d028d52414c392b08dedcc44e017b21fe5",
  "block": 18047960,
  "trx_in_block": 6,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-13T11:09:27",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "mindsportsio",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "2e01f1ec4fe54a36850ea35af4b466c5996702c1",
  "block": 18032614,
  "trx_in_block": 12,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-12T22:21:33",
  "op": [
    "delegate_vesting_shares",
    {
      "delegator": "steem",
      "delegatee": "astrayingline",
      "vesting_shares": "29738.857180 VESTS"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "391c3e0156ec790a59a6e9584d204ab75f335b65",
  "block": 17886217,
  "trx_in_block": 6,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-07T20:18:09",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "writeoffthebat",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "weight": 9000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "25ee11614e83899a7e145b0954d19e9bca16a314",
  "block": 17886195,
  "trx_in_block": 15,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-07T20:17:03",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "title": "deleted post",
      "body": "deleted post",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "ecb4d4385cf35c4c9ad21d0116feef75279cb849",
  "block": 17733182,
  "trx_in_block": 9,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-02T12:41:30",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "astrayingline",
      "author": "alexvan",
      "permlink": "electro-from-romania-elektro-aus-rumaenien",
      "weight": 10000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "7b6c8257193f1b237b3dad5eefc18ec79c9b857f",
  "block": 17715594,
  "trx_in_block": 8,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-01T22:01:57",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "jeffdud",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "weight": 500
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "0ae5503c659fcad57de34abb8107dc5678fdf884",
  "block": 17715502,
  "trx_in_block": 28,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-01T21:57:21",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "suriujenie",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "weight": 10000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "9e59a25a0baf55de087fed201a646509f6fa7151",
  "block": 17714882,
  "trx_in_block": 20,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-01T21:26:21",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "anomaly",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "016d092886070af555e9d3b75990e51a78ac1d2c",
  "block": 17714848,
  "trx_in_block": 16,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-12-01T21:24:39",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-2",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 2]",
      "body": "https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\n\nPart 1:\nhttps://steemit.com/art/@astrayingline/analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1\n\nLast time we left this around the 2:22 minute mark when we saw two masked figures embracing each other. The symbolism suggests that people have to go through two layers of ego in order to genuinely relate to another person. One layer is represented by their own ego, the other belongs to the other person. \"We are all searching for someone whose demons play well with ours\" says a quote whose author is unknown*. So we are all searching for someone who can accept our distortions, our shadows and the ways in which we have covered them up. Someone whose ego complements our own and doesn't mirror back our flaws.\n\nWe are then shown how out of this union, a child is born. The child comes from a place of unity, of perfection, of love. We see how pure the child is, and how perfect he is in his innocence. His connection to the divine is represented through the chakras, the energy centers of the body. These are the first illustrations that are depicted in harmonious colors as opposed to the dark colors that were used in the scenes before. This is in order to show the contrast between nature and nurture. The newborn is an embodiment of creative potential, while society is an embodiment of restrictive control.\n\n![23-divine child.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmbuuRXWEKzxZvtfqr6582UUfUYdQr9JPTQHXC6kHX1Ydy/23-divine%20child.png)\n\nThe child is welcomed into the world in a hostile way. We see the mother's legs spread out on the operating table and almost immediately after he is born, he is vaccinated and taken out of that place of perfection. What is supposed to be a miraculous event, is treated like a perfunctory operation. The two figures by the bed seem very impersonal and lacking in any regard for the magnificence of life. The instruments they are holding make the birth scene seem like a horror film. This perhaps suggests the dangers of becoming a personification of the function you perform in society. When you identify with your role in society, you start objectifying yourself. This reminds me of Jean-Paul Sartre's concept of radical freedom. Radical freedom is when you do what you consider to be right, even when your role in society or the standards of the world demand that you do the opposite. Basically you always have a choice and saying otherwise is a refusal to take responsibility for your actions.\n\n>\"We only become what we are by the radical and deep seated refusal of that which others have made of us.\" — Jean-Paul Sartre\n\nThe birth experience is traumatizing and no effort is made to ease the transition. This is how the infant is introduced to human experience.\n\n![24-vaccine.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmTTkfxw3kVm4yLj4118FCnvcDpRPn2oawHrwfrcBN9mjc/24-vaccine.png)\n\nWe are then presented with a classroom full of children whose heads are encased in red cubes like the ones we saw earlier in the movie. The child in the center still retains some natural wonder about the world, some original thought, some creative capabilities which is suggested by the colors above his head. The two figures of an academic attire that can be seen in the background give the impression that this is an indoctrination chamber rather than a classroom. Curiosity, the pleasure of exploration, wonder - traits that are innate to every child - are lost here and replaced by dullness, submission and uniformity. \n\n![24-indoctrination.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmNmuhsPMGzeD5AVV9eZo6zxCF7CEtYnZbChhMdMqTSvpj/24-indoctrination.png)\n\nYou take children and you make them sit down for half a day, telling them what to believe and not allowing them to explore things in their own way, that is an assault on their spirit. The teachers practically drain the creativity out of their pupils and install a rigid belief system instead. The red cage represents the limits up to which they are allowed to explore with their imagination and curiosity. Infinite possibilities are reduced to a box of beliefs. Like the opposite of \"Think outside the box\". And there are many ways to prevent a child from going beyond these limits. Ridicule questions, discourage initiative, condemn disagreement, reward conformity, promote repetition, glorify test results. \n \n>“I feel very strongly that it is not enough to just live in the world as it is and just take what you are given, to follow the things that adults told you to do and that your parents told you to do and that society tells you to do. I think you should always be questioning. I take this very scientific attitude that everything you've learned is just provisional, that it's always open to recantation, refutation, or questioning. And I think the same applies to society. Growing up, I slowly had this process of realizing that all the things around me that people had told me were just the natural way things were, the way things always would be, they weren’t natural at all. They were things that could be changed, and they were things that, more importantly, were wrong and should change, and once I realized that, there was really no going back. I couldn't fool myself into saying 'Oh, I'm just going go work for a business and ignore all that'. Once I realized that there were real, serious problems, fundemental problems that I could do something to address, I didn't see a way to forget that [...] \n>\n>Even when I was in school I was very frustrated with school. I thought that teachers didn't know what they were talking about and they were very domineering and controlling and that homework was kind of a sham and it was all just like all about a way to pen students all together and force them to do busywork. And, you know, I started reading books about the history of education and how this educational system was developed, and alternatives to it and ways that people could actually learn things as opposed to just regurgitating facts that teachers told them and that kind of led me down this path of questioning things. Once I questioned the school I was in, I questioned the society that built the school. I questioned the businesses the schools were training people for. I questioned the government that set up this whole structure.” - Aaron Schwartz\n\n![trumanshow.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmXQa8tWjoPRfp1rFYDh1hwgyP12HG7bVwZtCquhKCgyVY/trumanshow.png)\n\nAnother aspect captured in these scenes is that schools are interested in developing mainly the intellect. There are hardly any activities that engage the body as well or that encourage creative expression. There is a great quote by Sir Ken Robinson regarding this:\n\n>\"Every education system on Earth has the same hierarchy of subjects. Every one. It doesn't matter where you go. You'd think it would be otherwise, but it isn't. At the top are mathematics and languages, then the humanities, and at the bottom are the arts. Everywhere on Earth.\n>\n>And in pretty much every system, too, there is a hierarchy within the arts. Music and art are normally given a higher status in schools than drama and dance. There isn't an education system on the planet that teaches dance every day to children the way we teach them mathematics.\n>\n>Why not? I think this is rather important. I think math is very important, but so is dance. Children dance all the time, if they're allowed to. We all do. We all have bodies, don't we? Did I miss a meeting? Truthfully what happens is that as children grow up, we start to educate them progressively from the waist up. And then we focus on their heads, and slightly to one side.\n>\n>Our education system is predicated on the idea of academic ability. And there's a reason for that. The whole system came into being to meet the needs of industrialism. So you were probably steered benignly away from things at school when you were a kid, things you liked, on the grounds that you would never get a job doing that: Don't do music; you're not going to be a musician. Don't do art; you won't be an artist. Then: benign advice. Now: profoundly mistaken.\n>\n>Our education system has mined our minds in the way that we strip-mine the earth: for a particular commodity. And for the future, it won't serve us.\"\n\nThis quote has been brilliantly illustrated by Zen Pencils:\nhttps://zenpencils.com/comic/kenrobinson/\n\nIn the following scene we see the teacher leading the children off a cliff, to their own demise. The children look as though they are in a trance, unsuspecting of the danger that awaits them ahead. Black smoke is coming out of the back of the teacher who does not seem aware of what he is doing, like he is carrying this burden out of inertia, having been subjected himself to the same kind of indoctrination. The smoke and the up and down motion of their march is reminiscent of trains, which suggests the mechanical nature of this behavior. This is also a metaphor for industry which is interested in children getting a particular kind of education, one that prepares them for employment. One that discourages them from pursuing what interests them, because otherwise they wouldn't have at their disposal a working hand willing to perform the boring jobs that they promote as valuable and admirable. One that prepares them for a new kind of submission to authority.\n\n![26-demise.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmSPHc8jpZxs1LcpzzETUnF8vZ6trfdxYhus9ugiFymxAe/26-demise.png)\n\nAfter the industrial revolution, it soon became apparent to those with prosperous businesses that in order to maintain their status, the people had to be kept in a state of subordination. And what better way to do that than to control the things they were thinking about? Slowly they found ways to manipulate public opinion and influence political figures in order for the educational system that they had devised to be widely adopted. \n\n>\" When you are at the top you spend a lot of time and money making sure you stay at the top and the last things these Robber Barons would allow is for the uprising of the middle class into their hierarchy.\n>\n>With such large controlling wealth through their foundations came a resilient web of many useful ‘friends’ in the politically arena and in business. With connections in banking, Wall Street, law firms, media executives and proprietors along with behind the scenes PR firms they could ensure any type publicity and financial backing they wished including the masking of their true agendas. Through the largess of their foundations the Rockefellers, Carnegie, Mellon, Vanderbilt, Morgan and Guggenheim Foundations colluded to begin the process of designing our current public education system.\" - Jamie Lee\n\nA good article detailing this (where the quote above is taken from) can be found here:\nhttp://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/01/28/untold-history-modern-u-s-education-founding-fathers/\n\nThe next things we see is how, during their fall, these children are turning into pills which land in the mouth of a young man. This marks the transition from childhood to adolescence. Between these two ages, the children are medicated and over-medicated as society is quick to label any form of inadaptability as a mental illness. If you have a short attention span in school or you don't conform to the rules or if you just don't find the subjects that are being taught stimulating , the system is quick to pin the problem on you. It's never that the subjects in school really are boring or that they are taught out of context or that they are useless. It's that you have ADHD and you have a problem focusing. So you have an excuse to drug children as early as age 7, maybe even earlier. And then you can watch them become compliant, but also losing their interest in the world around them, becoming desensitized. And that's how they reach adolescence and later adulthood.\n\n>“ADHD makes a great excuse, the diagnosis can be an easy-to-reach-for crutch. Moreover, there’s an attractive element to an ADHD diagnosis, especially in adults. It can be exciting to think of oneself as involved in many things at once, rather than stuck in a boring rut.” - Richard Saul\n\n![27-army.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmchtPKth69mCEb7MjBejoySQR9ysKNHE9pjm8cgrKVvTh/27-army.png)\n\nThese young men are the ones that are lined up and sent to war to fight in the name of those same people that have indoctrinated them into compliance. They think they are doing something honorable, that they are protecting ideals and that they are sacrificing themselves for justice and freedom and democracy, but they are mere tools in the hands of those who know how to manipulate words, slaves to language and ideological tyranny. This is subtly illustrated here through the fact that all the young men have the same appearance. Their identity is insignificant, all that matters is that they are able to wear a uniform and hold a weapon. The drugs in their mouths represent submission and renunciation of responsibility, the uniform represents the fact that they no longer belong to themselves and that they have assumed the role they have been assigned and the weapon held in an awkward way represents the lack of awareness of their destructive capabilities. It is only in war that they finally realize what they have agreed to participate in.\n\nWhile young men sacrifice themselves for their country and bring destruction to others, it is an entirely different scenario for business people. For them it's an opportunity to make money and that's all they need to know in order to get involved in pushing this agenda on people. Whether it's selling weapons, or exploiting resources or any sort of change in the political dynamic that benefits them, they have vested interests in war. This is represented by a smiling man dressed in a suit coming out of a coffin full of money. War is a money machine in the hands of those who have no respect or compassion for the people who have fought in it.\n\nPoliticians also benefit from this, as is illustrated through the two figures holding blood money to their chests. Is it just me or does the man on the right looks like Obama? I hear a lot of people saying that he was one of the best presidents America has ever had. And that makes me realize how powerful the media machine is. His policies were just as destructive as those during the Bush administration, if not worse, and yet people believe that he has done so much good. I think it is because he has the gift of charisma and diplomacy more so than his predecessors so that he is able to appear noble in his intentions. What he is really good at is manipulating words so that he can always evade accountability. Plus, of course, having giant media companies behind him, portraying him as a charming saint helps too. I guess it's about knowing how to play a role. Just like Bush played the role of the incompetent fool. Which is another way to evade accountability. But I digress.\n\n![28-politicians.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmd3yzSWryH59VA4Mkc6p1FZ77ZcYhAroyjNwA2LCWUsKS/28-politicians.png)\n\nThe two figures are standing on skulls, so they are desecrating the memory of those that died in war. The fact that they are smiling shows that they have no integrity or remorse for what they have done. As media shows up, they grow white wings and a white circle appears above their heads,  the money turn into flowers and one of the men is holding a baby. That is the power of television, it makes saints out of sinners and sinners out of saints.\n\nWorking on this, I have decided not to continue my analysis beyond this part. I think the power of this short film lies in the way it makes you feel and language can be a barrier that can prevent access to meaning. This is pretty dark subject matter which is difficult to dive into, even though it has ... I don't wanna say a happy ending, but let's say it evolves towards revealing truth in its purest form. Which is something akin to how Adyashanti describes awakening:\n\n>\"To be this sincere with yourself may not be easy, initially. You may see things about yourself you don’t want to see. You may see the parts of yourself that stand in seemingly stark contrast to everything you have realized. Nonetheless, this is where awakening moves; awakening moves toward and into that which is not awake.\"\n\nMay you face your fears with courage!",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbuuRXWEKzxZvtfqr6582UUfUYdQr9JPTQHXC6kHX1Ydy/23-divine%20child.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTTkfxw3kVm4yLj4118FCnvcDpRPn2oawHrwfrcBN9mjc/24-vaccine.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmNmuhsPMGzeD5AVV9eZo6zxCF7CEtYnZbChhMdMqTSvpj/24-indoctrination.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmXQa8tWjoPRfp1rFYDh1hwgyP12HG7bVwZtCquhKCgyVY/trumanshow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSPHc8jpZxs1LcpzzETUnF8vZ6trfdxYhus9ugiFymxAe/26-demise.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmchtPKth69mCEb7MjBejoySQR9ysKNHE9pjm8cgrKVvTh/27-army.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmd3yzSWryH59VA4Mkc6p1FZ77ZcYhAroyjNwA2LCWUsKS/28-politicians.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\",\"https://steemit.com/art/@astrayingline/analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1\",\"https://zenpencils.com/comic/kenrobinson/\",\"http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/01/28/untold-history-modern-u-s-education-founding-fathers/\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "f2bb2e2ffc2c0cd30b6b06254deac4911d2a44d0",
  "block": 17412534,
  "trx_in_block": 13,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-21T09:23:00",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "sqube",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "50736a99c89c9c8d8b42da0a2c296a313117003a",
  "block": 17412498,
  "trx_in_block": 21,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-21T09:21:12",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 1]",
      "body": "@@ -13831,20 +13831,133 @@\n  smiling\n- and\n+. Because that's what people aspire towards, believing that they can 'fake it till they make it'. And that's also why\n  it's pr\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "dabb92f1bfc9df8657c6d618d9cb4d384f1db029",
  "block": 17412108,
  "trx_in_block": 12,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-21T09:01:42",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 1]",
      "body": "@@ -791,22 +791,16 @@\n tions. A\n-nother\n  great a\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "f0cdf9a385fe9dd9c11e37c29405e2102e3a9658",
  "block": 17411988,
  "trx_in_block": 4,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-21T08:55:42",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "ohreally",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "5e56f7a4facdb8a9ce6c9321dcefa8a19763365d",
  "block": 17411965,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-21T08:54:30",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 1]",
      "body": "@@ -5561,27 +5561,24 @@\n red \n-light that it emits\n+shade at the top\n  imp\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "1eec5e516d3000beafe4690878abfb7b4e8dcff0",
  "block": 17385401,
  "trx_in_block": 1,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-20T10:45:09",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "astrayingline",
      "author": "godflesh",
      "permlink": "everytime-we-deny-some-truth-we-get-sick",
      "weight": 10000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "914d6b3e332646638c1e642cf22e5c2d496f2e5a",
  "block": 17370449,
  "trx_in_block": 33,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T22:17:24",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"godflesh\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "319a781d146370879500116e25d798d5478a8667",
  "block": 17367570,
  "trx_in_block": 1,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T19:53:24",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "lawyerup",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "73de45b02fc79ec0dc8b74df5a9c06a26df0c6e4",
  "block": 17367552,
  "trx_in_block": 12,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T19:52:30",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 1]",
      "body": "@@ -6963,16 +6963,19 @@\n ons and \n+to \n claim ag\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "975ac9ec1111155c50c0d838995da71a4155cbde",
  "block": 17366712,
  "trx_in_block": 21,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T19:10:30",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "photography-help",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 10000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "13b13c1e42a0a429c7dbcd3cc06c50f0f533b768",
  "block": 17366456,
  "trx_in_block": 17,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T18:57:42",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "dmiton",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "2846f669e10fbc5f423a79584b45491e80a2234d",
  "block": 17366396,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T18:54:42",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "ubg",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "843b081d4040feb001f7e3f1d86d61711541cb17",
  "block": 17366280,
  "trx_in_block": 10,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T18:48:54",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"anomaly\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "8399881682895f5e99ab8129c3abe6275c2c7a9a",
  "block": 17365905,
  "trx_in_block": 2,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T18:30:09",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 1]",
      "body": "@@ -16050,118 +16050,8 @@\n ty. \n-There is no true confidence without allowing ourselves to be vulnerable. There is the potential for deception.\n  And\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "6b028a537dec07c7fbf1e0ebfe0f35647a9f5334",
  "block": 17365884,
  "trx_in_block": 1,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T18:29:06",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "anomaly",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "a7ef2c8e559a128759b266eed9c7b1c8f541d54b",
  "block": 17365855,
  "trx_in_block": 15,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T18:27:39",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "art",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "analysis-of-the-short-film-in-shadow-part-1",
      "title": "Analysis of the short film IN-SHADOW [Part 1]",
      "body": "https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\n\n\"Embark on a visionary journey through the fragmented unconscious of the west, and with courage face the Shadow. From Shadow into Light.\", that is the description of IN-SHADOW on YouTube.\n\nThe power of this short film developed by Lubomir Arsov lies in its symbolism as well as in the brutal honesty with which it illustrates the pathologies of our world. Not only that, but it somehow manages to bypass the intellect and speak to you at a deeper level, where language is perhaps comprised of dream symbols. In a dream you experience things whose emotional impact you may not be able to explain rationally and all you are left with are the feelings they evoke. The intellect is limited in this as it sometimes acts as a barrier to certain revelations. Another great achievement of this film is that it goes beyond that barrier and allows you to have the dream experience in a waking state. So let's try to interpret the symbols in this dream sequence.\n\nThe first thing we see is darkness. Nothing. Emptiness. \nOut of this void, one sphere emerges along with the light that shines upon it.\n\n![All ONE.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png)\n\nThe sphere splits into three smaller luminous orbs. This is the beginning of creation. When nothing turns into something - represented by the sphere - all is one. Then, this unity splits in what can be interpreted as the Holy Trinity (God, Son and the Holy Spirit). This is also suggested through the way the three orbs are disposed, one at the top, the other two below it.\n\n![orbs light.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png)\n\nThen everything is created while the three orbs overlook all creation.\n\n![orbs creation.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png)\n\nThe story takes us across the universe at a critical point, the birth of self-awareness, represented by the eye.\n\n![7 - man.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png)\n\nThrough the eye we see the Earth, which gradually contracts, from a sphere of great energy to a cube-shaped rock floating among debris. \n\n![8-earth energy.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png)\n\nThis is a representation of how human perception can make even the most outstanding things seem devoid of meaning and magic. The cube symbolizes conformity, safety, rigidity, imposition. It is not a shape that is indigenous to nature, it is a human creation, an artificial construct. It even looks like a prison. The metaphor is clear, humans have mutilated Earth and human experience so that they could fit it inside the box of ideology. And so, the light went dimmer and dimmer, until it could barely be seen. It didn't disappear, it was just blocked out of our perception. The debris that surrounds our planet are remnants of that destruction. \n\n![9-earth cube shaped rock.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png)\n\nThe next thing we see is an amalgamation of buildings of modern architecture stranded on an island in the middle of what appears to be a sea or an ocean. Above this metropolis there is a large and menacing dark cloud that suggests an imminent danger as well as industrial pollution. The debris is floating around but not sufficiently close to the concrete island so that it can be easily noticed. The feeling I get is that the level of the water that surrounds the island is a side effect of global warming. This image also suggests a feeling of isolation and disconnection from nature.\n\n![10-modern society.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png)\n\nAt a closer look, we can see these big buildings are floating above the the rest. They are standing in front of the sun, which makes them look like they're floating on a pillow of light, suggesting that they represent some kind of ideal of the modern world, that place towards which humans aspire. Climbing the hierarchy. This is also hinted to by the triangular shape of their arrangement. The buildings on the sides are smaller, while the ones in the middle are the highest. By contrast, the world below these buildings seems small and insignificant, orderly disposed and unimposing in any way. In fact it looks like arable land, which is something that is exploitable. The fact that these large constructions block the light of the sun suggests that they are what is preventing the rest of the world from becoming, well...enlightened. They hold the knowledge that those below are obstructed from receiving.\n\n![11 - closeup metropolis.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png)\n\nWe are then presented with what appears to be the largest building of all. The dark cloud seems to emanate from it. At this point you feel like a higher intelligence is dissecting the world so that you may be guided towards the truth. It feels like you are taken on a journey that shows you what hides beneath appearances. \nThe building has the darkest color of all, suggesting the malicious orientation of those residing there. When it is sectioned, light comes out, which indicates that those at the top, the elites, hold great knowledge and that that knowledge is restricted to those within that group. The red light that it emits implies that the knowledge they hold is used for negative purposes. That's why the light is tainted in the color of blood.\n\n![12 - largest building.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png)\n\nWe are then taken inside the top of the building where we see a number of hooded figures which seem to conjure up a red cube. The hooded figures seem to worship this cube. Their creation does not seem to have solidy, which suggests it's an ideology, a belief and a restrictive one (shape) at that as well as destructive (color). They have come up with a new frame. And in the next scene we see why.\n\n![14 - hooded figures.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png)\n\nThe cube traverses a sea of people who seem distracted and reaches a man whose eyes are closed, who literally has a whole in his chest where a darkness swarms and who assumes a straight position, with his arms by his side glued to his body. Then we see the red cube enclose his head. The cube seems to single him out from the crowd. What I think this means is that the new ideology - which is a distortion of truth - reaches those who do not use their critical thinking (eyes closed), who hold resentment within (hole in his chest) and who refuse to take responsibility for their actions and claim agency (arms by his side). The position he assumes is that of a lower rank officer in the military, someone who bows to authority and renounces free will in exchange of not having to take responsibility for his actions. Therefore he represents the enforcer of the ideology that is imposed from above.\n\n![15-conformity.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png)\n\nWe then see the effects of this ideology. It makes mere servants out of people. It creates societies where people don't care about each other, everyone minding their own business, it crams people into narrow places and forces them into boring jobs where they step over each other to reach the top in a hierarchy that does not honor virtue but compliance. It burdens people with debt and makes them enamored with material possessions.\n\n![16-ambition.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png)\n\nThe next scene shows people whose head is disjoint from the body. This is a powerful metaphor for one of the most pervasive problems we have: a head-centric approach to everything that surrounds us. This prevents us from plugging into reality and having a full experience of life. We glorify the intellect and we dismiss the intelligence of the body. We treat ourselves like walking heads as if the body's only real function is merely logistical. \n\n![17-diembodied.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png)\n\nThis is a quote from Philip Shepherd that I found via Bernhard Guenther which captures the intent of this scene:\n\n“As long as you continue to live in your head, the self will not even exist as an unbroken whole: when conscious thinking is independent of being, the male element is deliberately fracturing self and world. It is only when the pelvic center of your being is sensitized and fully participant in your consciousness—massively connecting and communicating— that the various and divergent aspects of the self will be able to reconcile into a whole.\n\nThe body holds the deepest currents of our being, and is our bridge to the life of the world around us – the being of the world. By separating the center of our thinking from all that, we enter a kind of alienation that makes us feel like spectators on the events that surround us. \n\nFurthermore, we start managing from on high what we cannot experience, because head-centric thinking is keen to create structures of control, systemization, judgment and acquisition. But being out of touch and off balance ourselves, we can only seed more imbalance with every willful, managerial impulse – even when our impulses spring from an agenda that seeks to improve things.\n\nThe desire to behave ethically, if coming from a place of disconnected reason, will necessarily focus on fixing how our behavior affects the material world; because disconnected reason tacitly expresses a contempt for the body, it will overlook the problem of how our relationship with the body affects our behavior.\n\nThis is our blind spot – and it is a towering liability, because our relationship with the world can only mirror and express the relationship we have with our own bodies. Having estranged ourselves from the body and its wisdom, we find ourselves also estranged from the world and its wisdom.”\n\n– Philip Shepherd, New Self New World \n\n![18-dissociation.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png)\n\nThis is further reinforced by the next scene where the head seems to erode into debris. This is a metaphor for dissociation. The fact that electronic devices are present in these images is not accidental, they contribute greatly to our state of inner division. There was even an experiment that showed that the attention span of a person has significantly decreased recently. When you are disconnected from the body and the society you live in is so alien to your true nature, you tend to dissociate and fall into depression, which is not a mental illness that needs to be fixed, it's most often a symptom of the kind of society we live in, the kind that would produce such reactions in the people that live in it. It's like Jiddu Krishnamurti said, \"It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.\"\n\n![19-shadow.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png)\n\nWe are shown how everything is upside down and how, as time passes, we all start to feel empty and how a dark cloud lurks over our heads that we feel is becoming unbearable. We suspect that something is wrong, but we assume that it's us, that we are not adaptable, that we need to try harder to fit in. Which produces monsters in our minds and creates what Carl Jung called the shadow, which is that aspect of ourselves that we have denied expression of and suppressed in order to comply with the definitions of normality that this world imposed on us. This shadow always lurks within us triggering reactive behaviors in us, causing conflict, because it wants to be integrated, it wants to be seen, it wants to be expressed.\n\n![20-mask.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png)\n\nBut we don't integrate it because everybody puts on the mask of happiness, which fortifies the belief that the problem resides in you, which it does, but not in the way you think. The problem isn't that you have dark things inside that need to be eradicated, they have their reasons for existing there. They are manifestations of those parts of yourself that you have chosen to ignore or that you have mutilated just so that the world would accept you. What the problem really is is that you see the shadow aspects of yourself and instead of trying to get to the bottom of how they came to be, you try to mask them. You feel ashamed about having them and you identify with this negative side of yourself, you really believe you are just angry and bitter and envious. So why is it not apparent that there's something more beyond these emotions? Because you are presented with another layer of deception, which is your \"identity\", your persona. The persona is where all the shoulds are. You should be kind, you should be generous, you should be strong, you should be calm, etc. You should be all the good things. And whenever you fail, it is an indication that you are a bad person or that you are not good enough or that you're not meant to do something. If you display anger, instead of looking deeper into it and find where it leads you, you start to feel bad about yourself for having shown anger and you will try to force yourself into never displaying anger again so that you may believe yourself to be that perfect person, that persona. That's why the mask is always smiling and it's promoted on TV. Because assumed identity wants to advance itself. And that can be easily exploited by intelligent marketing campaigns. \n\n![21-mask.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png)\n\nHere's a quote by Edward Bernays, the father of propaganda:\n\n“The conscious and intelligent manipulation of the organized habits and opinions of the masses is an important element in democratic society. Those who manipulate this unseen mechanism of society constitute an invisible government which is the true ruling power of our country. …We are governed, our minds are molded, our tastes formed, our ideas suggested, largely by men we have never heard of.. …In almost every act of our daily lives, whether in the sphere of politics or business, in our social conduct or our ethical thinking, we are dominated by the relatively small number of persons…who understand the mental processes and social patterns of the masses. It is they who pull the wires which control the public mind.”\n\nYou are encouraged to add value to yourself. And what is value in this sick society? The appearance of success in the form of material possessions, status, popularity and power.\n\n![22-codependence.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png)\n\nThe story progresses to a scene of remarkable emotional power. Two masked figures embracing each other in bed, empty alcohol bottles surrounding them. While their masks have wide smiles, you can tell by the way they are holding each other that they are not as happy as they seem. The strong grasp of each other suggests that they are seeking refuge in one another, they are looking for a way to escape the cruel reality they are living in. This idea is consolidated by the empty alcohol bottles that are by their sides which is another way to evade reality. This scene is particularly sad because it suggests that even intimate relationships are formed at a superficial level as long as we relate to one another from our false sense of identity. We fear that if we put our masks down we will be exposed and vulnerable. But there is no true connection without vulnerability. There is no true confidence without allowing ourselves to be vulnerable. There is the potential for deception. And what this breeds is co-dependence, not love. And we are in desperate need for connection and affection and love.\n\n[TO BE CONTINUED...]",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"art\",\"life\",\"shadow\",\"consciousness\",\"awakening\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/j800SVeiS5I/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmU3dJWS6VHr8P8S9Q2GeFqB6vuzXHBPnQYtm28QNm1R1Q/All%20ONE.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTeQoMTmGZWAx78sJxpLq918ETj6V6YrpzWmmG8P2Bah9/orbs%20light.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmUYyo62uWnvDMPhWp2VcAGGzGauqH9xUiBLFWQawjZf2u/orbs%20creation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmfYEDMqRJjumFkz7GSQwEo5UVzP4hjGBxeJ5TCc3NyvyJ/7%20-%20man.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbGE3zX52FhARviekZ16WAmxUevMyU5kNcWPqsp622WaH/8-earth%20energy.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmac1h7jWB7R7JcjYcka5XJZmxZMF5RJdH8E9EcxWuQRND/9-earth%20cube%20shaped%20rock.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmbMroH47NK4tmj8JSwuVNtNGDcrQYNyys2dJF1cYCJuBz/10-modern%20society.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmVx54QJVp9qPoVp2iQZDfVowfgYc8cYWS4wbFQ6N3Fa8a/11%20-%20closeup%20metropolis.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmTKdwds3qzfJrjUnJ14gqAxf49wTCFarz1VZvCTHuwyPN/12%20-%20largest%20building.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPx8CCYrRxpAhcGsU3rpUrZYT65duwmuMQv4VuofraWoT/14%20-%20hooded%20figures.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmacaHtYaLYhXnNErHEF3XgBjrPySr258bSf5YdKwDg9fi/15-conformity.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmY9gaHuFp5LS9thdqkQRLRakJKeb84bka8wcv8AncUoAn/16-ambition.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmSbr7TuNDFiDRHVvaop5AiAH2PJDznDZUa9mjNKMJUA18/17-diembodied.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWQqPH2bgRUSQQe2Hauf3symKkgAvt5Dmg3oxD46XKRrr/18-dissociation.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmevZUdKWbzuz7Q17eLRXbqhWx5pW4LatmCZky7BgpS3uC/19-shadow.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmPfwnWoJLeNk61Ptdib49gafvWrKYGxrcV4cM28YQ2zq2/20-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmP6sK4iCoQwa2FDuAsZiTx9pTRNh8fVbWHXb2tPm2YDYB/21-mask.png\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmeXr8ALBhRXjBiWrhFA8RrMes9UkBp2vnYDygD8QmNA5V/22-codependence.png\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j800SVeiS5I\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "7b8e3df42dd5bb8ec815e88679aef9a5a53add1c",
  "block": 17364559,
  "trx_in_block": 18,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-19T17:22:51",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "enarika",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "duality",
      "weight": 10000
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "e4b3a4fef88a50367c99a65bc1979a021180704e",
  "block": 17341039,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-18T21:46:00",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "life",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "duality",
      "title": "Duality",
      "body": "You know that thing you know you should be doing? \nNot that one. \nThe one you always refuse to look at. \nAre you sure you got it? \nLook again. \nIt's right there on the same aisle as fear and unpleasant consequences and rationalizations.\nThat's right. That's it. \n\nWell...\nGo do it. \nNow. \n\nWhy?\nBecause you know you have to. \nYou feel it.\nYet you choose to convince yourself otherwise because it's easier.\nFor now...\n\nIt's getting harder and harder to bear.\nAnd it will continue to do so.\n\nYet you cling on to it.\nBecause you've never played outside that role before.\n\nAnd you suspect that beneath it, there is something scary.\nAnd there is.\nYou.\n\nBecause who you really are is dangerous.\nWho you really are has self-awareness.\nWho you really are has responsibility.\nWho you really are has courage.\nWho you really are has choice.\n\nAnd that cannot be controlled.\n\nSo choose.\nWisely.\n\n![duality_by_manafoldart-d7xs1pm.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmWjVi1s5ka5BVYrxiD7bL4tYw3d8U9tiEtFe1B3MUUTCV/duality_by_manafoldart-d7xs1pm.jpg)\nArt: Duality by Louis Dyer https://manafoldart.deviantart.com/art/Duality-479999146",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"life\",\"choice\",\"identity\",\"poem\",\"shadow\"],\"image\":[\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmWjVi1s5ka5BVYrxiD7bL4tYw3d8U9tiEtFe1B3MUUTCV/duality_by_manafoldart-d7xs1pm.jpg\"],\"links\":[\"https://manafoldart.deviantart.com/art/Duality-479999146\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "6b6dcb2f5b76fa59d880f0e28a155c4194a5bc5b",
  "block": 17273220,
  "trx_in_block": 16,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-16T13:14:30",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "life",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "title": "Identity, Conditioning and Overcoming Our Limitations",
      "body": "@@ -6529,16 +6529,1759 @@\n t works.\n+%0A%0AFor me the problem was that I had difficulty saying no to things even though they were bad for me. I had a basic idea of why that was, but I never seemed to be able to get at the core of it. It took me about a year to realize that someone I knew was taking advantage of this vulnerability I had in order to condition me to into tending to her needs. That allowed me to observe myself and realize that I had difficulty saying no to people and setting boundaries and I seemed to take on the responsibilities of those around me and was kind of a people pleaser. I had identified my shadow. So I took the time to think about it and I could not believe how much I could learn. The way I went into it was like this:%0A%0A- I identified the problem %0AFor me that was an inability to say no.%0A- I narrowed down the context%0AI found that I had trouble with saying no only in a specific context. It was only when doing what was right for me was hurting someone that needed me (or someone I perceived to be needing me) that I felt troubled.%0A- I identified the feeling behind my inner conflict%0AFor me it was anxiety, fear, a need to be understood and a sense of going against myself.%0A- I looked into my past to find situations where I had felt the same%0AI don't want to get into details here, but I'll say this, somewhere relatively early down the line I was confronted with either being authentic and disliked or compliant and approved of.%0A- I tried to understand why I adopted that coping mechanism%0AAnd here is where a number of ramifications came up that I never even suspected.%0A%0AI don't believe I would have been able to identify how I developed my coping mechanisms had I not been confronted with a new situation that challenged me to face my conditioning.\n  It is l\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"life\",\"identity\",\"conditioning\",\"society\",\"childhood\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/pI6dOblhIlo/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmdhgRHxkUjYbmb8AyBWZKgb76jQg5nA2rJcbeb5BkStKt/patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI6dOblhIlo\",\"https://www.last.fm/user/andreea89\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "a3ad55e48f050f628d6df4b068c9f138ef0ad5f1",
  "block": 17273168,
  "trx_in_block": 25,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-16T13:11:54",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "life",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "title": "Identity, Conditioning and Overcoming Our Limitations",
      "body": "@@ -6361,17 +6361,16 @@\n tion ree\n-e\n nacts it\n@@ -6534,1752 +6534,8 @@\n ks. \n-%0A%0AFor me the problem was that I had difficulty saying no to things even though they were bad for me. I had a basic idea of why that was, but I never seemed to be able to get at the core of it. It took me about a year to realize that someone I knew was taking advantage of this vulnerability I had in order to condition me to into tending to her needs. That allowed me to observe myself and realize that I had difficulty saying no to people and setting boundaries and I seemed to take on the responsibilities of those around me and was kind of a people pleaser. I had identified my shadow. So I took the time to think about it and I could not believe how much I could learn. The way I went into it was like this:%0A%0A- I identified the problem %0AFor me that was an inability to say no.%0A- I narrowed down the context%0AI found that I had trouble with saying no only in a specific context. It was only when doing what was right for me was hurting someone that needed me (or someone I perceived to be needing me) that I felt troubled.%0A- I identified the feeling behind my inner conflict%0AFor me it was anxiety, fear, a need to be understood and a sense of going against myself.%0A- I looked into my past to find situations where I had felt the same%0AI don't want to get into details here, but I'll say this, somewhere relatively early down the line I was confronted with either being authentic and disliked or compliant and approved of.%0A- I tried to understand why I adopted that coping mechanism%0AAnd here is where a number of ramifications came up that I never even suspected.%0A%0AI don't believe I would have been able to identify how I developed my coping mechanisms had I not been confronted with a new situation that challenged me to face my conditioning. \n It i\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"life\",\"identity\",\"conditioning\",\"society\",\"childhood\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/pI6dOblhIlo/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmdhgRHxkUjYbmb8AyBWZKgb76jQg5nA2rJcbeb5BkStKt/patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI6dOblhIlo\",\"https://www.last.fm/user/andreea89\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "85ba9362c3411bc45bfe7977926bd08456b89315",
  "block": 17254072,
  "trx_in_block": 0,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-15T21:17:00",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"krnel\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "8c1e73db804ead2b24f9f1162caeb89f5aa3048d",
  "block": 17254071,
  "trx_in_block": 5,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-15T21:16:57",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"full-steem-ahead\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "6fc3ac4bd4f4fc950531bc87d89b1f5422d9df9d",
  "block": 17247245,
  "trx_in_block": 15,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-15T15:35:36",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"elissahawke\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "2d9859e45ed8c1217a5955525033fa5ac3a69f59",
  "block": 17214374,
  "trx_in_block": 18,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T12:11:39",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"docdelux\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "7d90a0c72c00c05018c2b911e7faea531e5a7b03",
  "block": 17214328,
  "trx_in_block": 14,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T12:09:21",
  "op": [
    "custom_json",
    {
      "required_auths": [],
      "required_posting_auths": [
        "astrayingline"
      ],
      "id": "follow",
      "json": "[\"follow\",{\"follower\":\"astrayingline\",\"following\":\"paigemoore\",\"what\":[\"blog\"]}]"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "0723d673fef7305c535577bc39e45ff6f2fd5422",
  "block": 17211774,
  "trx_in_block": 22,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T10:01:39",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "jeffdud",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "weight": 500
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "3b66c687b05e5491dfa40429e6d4f707a2978d5d",
  "block": 17211679,
  "trx_in_block": 23,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T09:56:54",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "life",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "title": "Identity, Conditioning and Overcoming Our Limitations",
      "body": "@@ -2104,16 +2104,21 @@\n r temper\n+ament\n  and a l\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"life\",\"identity\",\"conditioning\",\"society\",\"childhood\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/pI6dOblhIlo/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmdhgRHxkUjYbmb8AyBWZKgb76jQg5nA2rJcbeb5BkStKt/patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI6dOblhIlo\",\"https://www.last.fm/user/andreea89\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "f59fb088425ed50106220578b82ca36c014b1297",
  "block": 17211068,
  "trx_in_block": 8,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T09:26:21",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "life",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "title": "Identity, Conditioning and Overcoming Our Limitations",
      "body": "@@ -6871,12 +6871,10 @@\n  to \n-t\n he\n-i\n r ne\n",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"life\",\"identity\",\"conditioning\",\"society\",\"childhood\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/pI6dOblhIlo/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmdhgRHxkUjYbmb8AyBWZKgb76jQg5nA2rJcbeb5BkStKt/patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI6dOblhIlo\",\"https://www.last.fm/user/andreea89\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "7b988106a1fe5c7663c96c23660ac830d5f29ebb",
  "block": 17210980,
  "trx_in_block": 11,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T09:21:57",
  "op": [
    "vote",
    {
      "voter": "anomaly",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "weight": 100
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "86d432112eeb1a785ed4738090e74f6187ff47ee",
  "block": 17210861,
  "trx_in_block": 18,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-14T09:16:00",
  "op": [
    "comment",
    {
      "parent_author": "",
      "parent_permlink": "life",
      "author": "astrayingline",
      "permlink": "identity-conditioning-and-overcoming-our-limitations",
      "title": "Identity, Conditioning and Overcoming Our Limitations",
      "body": "When you are a kid you don't worry about how you are perceived by the outside world. You are guided by whatever impulse arises within you and you honor it through action. You don't care whether what you are doing is consistent with your previous actions or with the image you have projected into the world by that point. People around you will start telling you how you are, but you either don't care much about that or you just don't \"feel\" that way. This isn't because you don't trust people, but because you haven't developed a strong sense of being a separate entity from the world and you haven't learned how to make a clear distinction between the experience and the experiencer. A label isn't much to a child.\n\nhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI6dOblhIlo\n\nAs you grow, you start to adopt beliefs about yourself and about the world you live in which allows you to to develop a sense of identity. The more beliefs you acquire, the clearer the contrast becomes between you and the world. It's like wearing a pair of special glasses that \"enhance\" your worldview. You assume your worldview is how reality looks like and you don't question whether your glasses are adding any effect to what you are perceiving. In fact, you aren't even aware that you are wearing a pair of glasses, that is the difficulty of it. And when you start to figure it out, you don't know how far the level of influence goes.\n\nIdentity is a funny thing. You think it is such a positive thing when you are in high school, when you try to define yourself in whatever way possible and give color to your personality. I like this, I don't like that. I'm pro this, I'm anti that. The way this makes you feel is like you've added something to yourself, like you know where you position yourself in the world now. And this is a natural reaction to having gathered your sense of self in relation to your parents up until that point. You want to find out what makes you you. And you explore and you try out different things in order to see what fits. The general way you relate to the world is pretty much cemented by then, meaning your temper and a large chunk of your personality. It's the outer layers that you are exploring now. You're trying to find your interests, your hobbies, your likes and dislikes.\n\nFor me it was music and movies. I was obsessed. I filled my time watching everything I could and I would spend so much time on lastfm that my library grew to large proportions. I took pride in that. I would sometimes, in my more self-aware moments, catch myself listening to music for the statistics only. A purpose was forming in my mind, which was to have a comprehensive collection of music on my channel that showed how well-versed I was in it. I craved the identity that it was granting me.\n\nThis was my profile during that time:\nhttps://www.last.fm/user/andreea89\n\nBack then I decided I liked the color blue, and I disliked hard rock, I was pro computer games and anti smoking. I liked basketball, Avril Lavigne and I disliked people that stared. And I was happy to count on that. I was happy when people shared similar \"views\" and I was even happier when they didn't, because I could practice  having confidence which is how being comfortable with disagreement felt like. To me that was a big deal, even if the things I stood up for were completely irrelevant.\n\nA lot of these preferences stayed with me for a pretty long time. Some evolved into other interests, but they were still based on some sort of reaction to something. It was only years after that I realized what I had done. This came with a few dissilusionments in my personal life that made me reevaluate everything. It was as though the ground was falling out from beneath my feet. I had added layers upon layers of self-deception to myself all that time. And somehow, with that new awareness, those things started fading from my personality one by one. I still enjoyed music, but I didn't listen to it that often and when I did, it wasn't with any agenda other than to savor it. Movies, I hardly watched afterwards unless it was something I considered truly worthwhile. And I'm telling you, it's a different experience when you actually enjoy the thing you're doing! \n\nI didn't realize back then that I was removing side effects of social programming. But, compared to what came next, that was child's play. A few years passed and I stumbled into more suffering. And this kind of suffering went through the roof. And I got a glimpse of the fact that perhaps there was more to my conditioning than I thought and that it went deeper than I thought. But it was hard to grasp, just like an amorphous shadow. And I understood that a lot of my behavior was mechanical, it was reactive, it was predictable. I wanted to know why. And that's where the real work began! I was starting to see the outline of the glasses I was wearing.\n\n![patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg](https://steemitimages.com/DQmdhgRHxkUjYbmb8AyBWZKgb76jQg5nA2rJcbeb5BkStKt/patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg)\n\nWhen you commit yourself to getting to the bottom of your conditioning, that amorphous shadow may in time develop a contour and you may get a rough idea of why you behave in ways that you can't rationally explain. The shadow is that thing that you don't like within you that always leads you to difficult situations, like an inability to say no or excessive anger or being too expansive. In time you may be confronted with things that hold the distinctive marks of the same problem and you may develop an understanding of the kind of things that project that kind of shadow. If you give yourself the time, you may find one of those things somewhere in your past, most likely in your childhood, because that's when things get cemented within your mind as you aren't equipped to assess situations from a strong standpoint nor do you have the awareness that you can subject the people around you to scrutiny. So you unwittingly take somebody else's perception of you for reality and you integrate it into your being. If that perception does not have a basis in truth, then you will relate to the world through a false sense of self. You will have an illusion guiding your choices which inevitably leads to more confrontations in life where that misperception reeenacts itself in one form or another. In that way you get a second chance to overcome that illusion that you assumed to be truth all your life. And that is how it works. \n\nFor me the problem was that I had difficulty saying no to things even though they were bad for me. I had a basic idea of why that was, but I never seemed to be able to get at the core of it. It took me about a year to realize that someone I knew was taking advantage of this vulnerability I had in order to condition me to into tending to their needs. That allowed me to observe myself and realize that I had difficulty saying no to people and setting boundaries and I seemed to take on the responsibilities of those around me and was kind of a people pleaser. I had identified my shadow. So I took the time to think about it and I could not believe how much I could learn. The way I went into it was like this:\n\n- I identified the problem \nFor me that was an inability to say no.\n- I narrowed down the context\nI found that I had trouble with saying no only in a specific context. It was only when doing what was right for me was hurting someone that needed me (or someone I perceived to be needing me) that I felt troubled.\n- I identified the feeling behind my inner conflict\nFor me it was anxiety, fear, a need to be understood and a sense of going against myself.\n- I looked into my past to find situations where I had felt the same\nI don't want to get into details here, but I'll say this, somewhere relatively early down the line I was confronted with either being authentic and disliked or compliant and approved of.\n- I tried to understand why I adopted that coping mechanism\nAnd here is where a number of ramifications came up that I never even suspected.\n\nI don't believe I would have been able to identify how I developed my coping mechanisms had I not been confronted with a new situation that challenged me to face my conditioning. It is like life has embedded within it a remarkable feedback mechanism that can help you evolve beyond your limitations and see the truth. And so, life is our ally.",
      "json_metadata": "{\"tags\":[\"life\",\"identity\",\"conditioning\",\"society\",\"childhood\"],\"image\":[\"https://img.youtube.com/vi/pI6dOblhIlo/0.jpg\",\"https://steemitimages.com/DQmdhgRHxkUjYbmb8AyBWZKgb76jQg5nA2rJcbeb5BkStKt/patronus-curse-001-tease-today-160921_10228177137a5b18cbc0b40e22629775.jpg\"],\"links\":[\"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pI6dOblhIlo\",\"https://www.last.fm/user/andreea89\"],\"app\":\"steemit/0.1\",\"format\":\"markdown\"}"
    }
  ]
}

{
  "trx_id": "187d1fe68230d1da8e6ee8307bffe65d8480a9b6",
  "block": 17162650,
  "trx_in_block": 42,
  "op_in_trx": 0,
  "virtual_op": 0,
  "timestamp": "2017-11-12T17:05:18",
  "op": [
    "account_create_with_delegation",
    {
      "fee": "0.500 STEEM",
      "delegation": "57000.000000 VESTS",
      "creator": "steem",
      "new_account_name": "astrayingline",
      "owner": {
        "weight_threshold": 1,
        "account_auths": [],
        "key_auths": [
          [
            "STM89MCaHmukyDV3EnzbyjQy8wWqj9TjinWVcW91LNRQtDRwJZQvG",
            1
          ]
        ]
      },
      "active": {
        "weight_threshold": 1,
        "account_auths": [],
        "key_auths": [
          [
            "STM6EcWg49AmmXDAsZEx6yp5SfYdtseZVUeLwLqbPxuhxVKTggBsM",
            1
          ]
        ]
      },
      "posting": {
        "weight_threshold": 1,
        "account_auths": [],
        "key_auths": [
          [
            "STM6soXCbT6Tf7tZ8zDk38tGVS7dDNtj7Mbmvp43LnZZ1spFWRB2w",
            1
          ]
        ]
      },
      "memo_key": "STM63d7e1JVwNyZaLLWcnEQ35WZ8zguZ7nvvh76jTVAYng68x17kH",
      "json_metadata": "",
      "extensions": []
    }
  ]
}