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| comment | | "parent_author":"",<br>"parent_permlink":"life",<br>"author":"aldentan",<br>"permlink":"an-artist-s-way-of-fulfilment",<br>"title":"An Artist's Way Of Fulfilment",<br>"body":"<html>\n<p>http:\/\/alden-tan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/31949188_10156281597816870_9093989793490010112_n.jpg<\/p>\n<p><em>made this picture with the <\/em><a href=\"https:\/\/itunes.apple.com\/us\/app\/portrait-by-img-ly\/id1207277088?mt=8\"><em>Portrait app<\/em><\/a><em>. That's my face by the way<\/em><\/p>\n<h1>During my recent trip to Chiang Mai,<br> I felt a little lost and lonely at times.<\/h1>\n<p>Sure,<br> there was cheap beer,<br> nice places to chill and do my work,<br> a relaxed culture and atmosphere,<br> but I felt like there was always a void inside me.<\/p>\n<p>In fact,<br> this void has been around for a while now.<\/p>\n<p>Admittedly,<br> I tried to fill it with alcohol,<br> partying and girls.<\/p>\n<p>When I was younger,<br> it was great fun. I called it fun.<\/p>\n<p>But today,<br> I've to say that it's a void which I've been trying to fill with external sources when I should truly be looking inwards to fill that cup.<\/p>\n<p>And I ought to stop filling it with beer,<br> loud music and women.<\/p>\n<p>For the hangover doesn't feel good.<\/p>\n<p>For the women come and go.<\/p>\n<p>For the music are just noise.<\/p>\n<p>For trying to get rid of all of the above before I start writing is cumbersome.<\/p>\n<p>I didn't like that,<br> the fleeting emotions of happiness and joy that act ultimately as shrapnel that stay,<br> then pierce at the most unexpected of times.<\/p>\n<h1>I've decided since that I'm changing my writing habits and my lifestyle as a person who is trying to make a living doing what he loves.<\/h1>\n<p>I've told this to my buddy @kenistyles before,<br> that I am heart a writer who wants to create stories,<br> someone who wants to write fiction.<\/p>\n<p>I've neglected that for a long while.<\/p>\n<p>I am making it a point to sit down everyday to write fiction and also put some time apart to gather inspiration my own way. Right now,<br> that'd be reading graphic novels,<br> particularly the ones by Neil Gaiman because I think they portray emotions and philosophy the best.<\/p>\n<h1>I guess fulfilment is the start.<\/h1>\n<p>Quantifiable results the world can see,<br> can wait.<\/p>\n<p>Wish me luck.<\/p>\n<p><br><\/p>\n<a href = \"https:\/\/steemit.com\/@aldentan\"><img src = \"http:\/\/alden-tan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/Steemit-banner.jpg\"><\/a><\/html>",<br>"json_metadata":" \"tags\":[\"life\",<br>\"art\",<br>\"work\",<br>\"lifestyle\",<br>\"artist\" ,<br>\"users\":[\"kenistyles\" ,<br>\"image\":[\"http:\/\/alden-tan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/31949188_10156281597816870_9093989793490010112_n.jpg\",<br>\"http:\/\/alden-tan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/Steemit-banner.jpg\" ,<br>\"links\":[\"https:\/\/itunes.apple.com\/us\/app\/portrait-by-img-ly\/id1207277088?mt=8\",<br>\"https:\/\/steemit.com\/@aldentan\" ,<br>\"app\":\"steemit\/0.1\",<br>\"format\":\"html\" " |
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