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| comment | | "parent_author":"",<br>"parent_permlink":"poetry",<br>"author":"salmuk",<br>"permlink":"that-goes-for-you-too-2f96726458598",<br>"title":"That goes for you too",<br>"body":"![image (https:\/\/img.esteem.ws\/g3bqfz8103.jpg)\nSomething I'm really struggling with lately is my inability to just focus on one thing - I just want to be everything,<br> and I want to be damn good at everything. It's not enough that I'm writing three pieces a day,<br> I also want to publish a book. My full length draft is being edited,<br> and without hesitation I'm thinking what I want to do for another manuscript. I'm connecting with amazing people,<br> and yet I want to meet more. I'm using my talents every single day,<br> but I'm still searching for ways I can dig even deeper.\u2800\n\u2800\nDo you ever feel like that? Like it's simply never enough?\u2800\n\u2800\nLately I've been plagued by the fear of time just running out - not enough hours in the day,<br> not enough minutes to learn and absorb all I want to,<br> and in turn,<br> not being 'good enough' at every single thing I want to do. It's crazy,<br> really. I know it is. And yet,<br> I have the hardest time settling for anything less than perfection in myself.\u2800\n\u2800\nI want,<br> so desperately,<br> to be the best at everything I do - or else what's the point? (At least that's what I tell myself). It's funny because I can write article after article on slowing down,<br> on loving yourself,<br> on being proud of who you are while striving for more - and yet,<br> here I am,<br> always pushing pushing pushing without taking a moment to be like,<br> \"Hey Maris,<br> you're kicking a$$.\" You know?\u2800\n\u2800\nI don't know if it's a bad thing,<br> necessarily,<br> to want to be the best you can be. But I wish sometimes I could just be okay with where I'm at without always feeling like there's another level to reach,<br> goal to set,<br> expectation to break. Do you ever feel this way? Like you're trying so hard to be everything...that you don't even know who you are anymore? If this is you,<br> I hope you breathe today. I hope you laugh today. I hope you remind yourself you're awesome today. \u2800\n\u2800\n\"Whatever you are be a beautiful one\" - this line from one of my old pieces popped into my head during my morning workout. It's a reminder that I don't have to be everything; I just have to be me. And whoever that person is (or becomes) is perfectly enough.",<br>"json_metadata":" \"links\":[ ,<br>\"image\":[\"https:\/\/img.esteem.ws\/g3bqfz8103.jpg\" ,<br>\"tags\":[\"poetry\",<br>\"life\",<br>\"post\",<br>\"steem\",<br>\"esteem\" ,<br>\"app\":\"esteem\/1.6.0\",<br>\"format\":\"markdown+html\",<br>\"community\":\"esteem\" " | | comment_options | "author":"salmuk",
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