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| comment | | "parent_author":"",<br>"parent_permlink":"love",<br>"author":"rebeccamorgan",<br>"permlink":"thoughts-on-my-anniversary-with-my-late-husband",<br>"title":"Thoughts on my anniversary with my late husband.",<br>"body":"<html>\n<p><img src=\"https:\/\/scontent.fsnc1-1.fna.fbcdn.net\/t31.0-8\/13308441_10208538995486126_4678068993353254654_o.jpg\" width=\"2048\" height=\"1536\"\/>This is what we looked like 12 years ago. Just days after our wedding on September 18th. Enjoying the beauty of Hawaii while on our honeymoon.<\/p>\n<p>I was young,<br> naive,<br> and incredibly happy to be married to the man of my dreams. My \"prince charming.\"<\/p>\n<p>His name was Luke Gertner. And he,<br> too,<br> was young and naive. <\/p>\n<p>This picture was taken before we had three children. Before cancer.<\/p>\n<p>I'll never forget how shocking it was to look at pictures likes these in those raw days after cancer took him from me. You see,<br> I had become so accustomed to his emaciated,<br> sick form. So when I began pouring over the pictures of the life we had shared,<br> I went through a brief season where I felt as if I didn't recognize the healthy man in the photo's anymore.<\/p>\n<p>As my first year of widowhood ticked past,<br> I drifted farther and farther away from that young,<br> naive 23 year old on her honeymoon. I drifted so far,<br> that I felt more like an 80 year old than a 31 year old. The pain,<br> the loneliness,<br> the grief,<br> they all took a toll. The only thing that reminded me I was indeed young,<br> was my 3 children,<br> ages 7,<br> 5,<br> and 2.<\/p>\n<p>As I type this today,<br> I'm filled with a burden to remember. Luke was charming,<br> he loved to laugh. He was a strong,<br> determined person who had a huge heart. And as I feel the years dimming the clarity of those facts,<br> it's hard sometimes to quickly form a picture of this man I once was married to.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes I look at my children and wonder how they would have interacted with their \"Daddy Luke\" as they grew. Sometimes I'm filled with a pain deep in my heart over the fact that he has missed so many birthdays,<br> ballet lessons,<br> soccer games and lost teeth.<\/p>\n<p>To this day,<br> I still have no clue why some people die young and why others live long,<br> full lives. I don't know why \"the good die young.\" But what I do know,<br> is I was incredibly blessed to have called Luke my husband.<\/p>\n<p>The day he moved to heaven I thought it would be impossible to love another man. Yet,<br> at the same time my heart hoped I would somehow be able to heal enough to let love be a part of my life again.<\/p>\n<p>It took some time,<br> tears,<br> lots of prayer and a whole lot of hugs from my children. But eventually my heart did indeed heal. And,<br> love did indeed return to my life.<\/p>\n<p><img src=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/profile.php?id=1045490832\"\/>And what an incredible gift it has been! <\/p>\n<p>As I think about the anniversary of my first wedding,<br> along with the twinge of sadness also comes gratitude. Somehow,<br> for some reason,<br> I have been blessed to know the love of two amazing men. And,<br> my children have been blessed to have two fathers who love them dearly.<\/p>\n<p>September 18th will always serve as a day to remember just how precious life is. How fragile it is. And how each day,<br> and each person in it,<br> is truly a gift!<\/p>\n<p><br><\/p>\n<p><br><\/p>\n<\/html>",<br>"json_metadata":" \"tags\":[\"love\",<br>\"marriage\",<br>\"life\",<br>\"death\",<br>\"health\" ,<br>\"image\":[\"https:\/\/scontent.fsnc1-1.fna.fbcdn.net\/t31.0-8\/13308441_10208538995486126_4678068993353254654_o.jpg\",<br>\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/profile.php?id=1045490832\" " | | vote | "voter":"rebeccamorgan",
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